Remembrance..

It's not the first time I felt anti-social in class..
Sometimes I just don't know where to go and who to talk to..
Sometimes plain emptiness just dawn on me.. confining my mind.

Sigh.. I need someone to talk to, someone to throw my feelings at.
And so I did.

Few months back, there was this special moment I had with Pei Jean.. which was the Keng Sam Si session. Back then, it was kinda cool, as we often cut classes and hid at the corner of the corridor just to share our thoughts and secrets as a form 4 teenager. Since the start of the year, we didn't really talk much anymore. Until the Wednesday before.. I saw her reading a book, a novel which the line was in vertical positioning. The cover mentioned something about.. "Stay happy" kind of stuffs.

"What are you reading?" That was how I started a conversation with her. And we ended up strolling down the memory lane.. and some moment of truth. Then Bra, came in.. and there were more moment of truth. Glad everyone there was able to share it out truthfully.. and sincerely. We all realized that, we matured incredibly fast.. and the past that we shaped had been long forgotten, like piece of unwanted, immature piece of memories. Well maybe I will keep some of them for life though.

You know.. My tuition teacher trashed and rejected my essay with a disgraceful tone in the class. It left me on the verge of tears, knowing that the effort and time and thoughts that I poured into my piece of work belonged in the dumpster. Argh.. now I have to crack my head to mould another piece of work - with the chance of getting the same treatment.



Strong and blur appearance outside..
Weak and focus inside..

How much can you see?

I'd be indifferent..

Not supposed to be online now.. I should really dig a hole and bury myself down in the puddle of mud. My appalling results had cast a spell of disgrace and disappointment on me. I'm okay with that but, hopefully my parents don't find me as a disappointment to them. It's a terrible thing to do, seeing your parents shed tears over what the responsibilities that you had taken as a student and also, as the eldest.

In comparison to me, both my siblings are able to score splendidly in their exams, and they make it look really easy.. like Mario collecting coins. Sigh.. I wonder was it me that who did not put in extra effort, or they had been secretly working hard? Knowing my brother, who is definitely smarter and more cunning than me, is able to pull through exams with his raw talent. His records proved it. My sister, the not so smart one, normally pours in her diligence and perseverance in crafting great results. I admire her for that.

Friends.

Glad to have friends like Dragon and Khai Seong, who accompanied me all the way to summit to purchase a new pair of Basketball Shoes. Amazingly though, Bear also splashed his cash on a pair of shoes himself. The trip took almost the whole day out of us and it ended all the way at Dragon's house. Anyways, Dragon if you ever see this, I just want to say
thanks a lot bro. (:

Adrenalin Mob - Indifferent

"Looking back on my life.."

It's amazing that I'm already a Form 5, waiting to graduate from my secondary/middle school and head towards highschool/college. It feels like in a blink of an eye, everything changed. From what I learn, and what I know, and what I am interested of. And who I care for.

Why am I posting all these stuffs? I don't know. John said that my blog had become an EMO blog. Well, partly the truth lolx.

Anyways,

I've done an As I Lay Dying - Moving forward song and a cover for the intro-verse-chorus for Set The World On Fire by Symphony X. Be sure to check it out. :)


and Boston lost to Miami.. Agh..

Tired.. Fear..

10.48p.m.

It's been a while since I last updated my blog.. Hmm.. it's been exams circling all over my mind for the past weeks so I didn't have time to pour my time into online blogging. I do wonder sometimes whether are there any readers visiting my blog.. or all my efforts and feelings poured here just for my own entertainment and excitement.

Today might be the worse day of my life.. I had no fucking soul or life in me today. I can't feel any enthusiasm in me carrying out activities for the whole day, which is very wrong. It just seems like the world doesn't matter anymore. For the first time these feelings came.. Weird much.

Oh yeah, I have been working on my Shooting lately with Khai Seong. Finally saw some improvements. To go with the training, I actually ripped my basketball shoes. Crap. The base of the shoes had been ripped out and it's not easy to be replaced. How do you actually glue back the sole of the shoes, come on it's basketball man. So, to solve it all, we plan to go seek for a new pair of shoes. Well, there goes my Adidas.

My biggest fear..

I was wondering whether I wrote the wrong story line for my topic. It's the truth anyways, I am afraid of pop-up ghosts and horror stuffs. sigh.

Still Isabel's idea of 'My Biggest Fear is Losing You'.. was pretty impressive. However too bad she didn't write it, or not it would be a great essay based on her caliber. :P

But still who would she be scard of losing..? Apart from her family and relatives. :P


Somehow, I can't get enough rest.. is it because I have been going online too much.?

Nevermind.. as long as I spend time on Astro Tutor TV.. should be able to keep up with my studies.

Oh yeah.. Add maths project.

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