Everyday is a brand new day..

It's time to leave the memories behind and start to move on..


2nd July 2012, 9.55pm..

It's the second day of the last term of my final school year. It's time where we can see people start to pour in effort in their work and studies and stuffs. This is where we can see true friendships that count, people who would lend you a hand when you're down. Sometimes, deep down inside, I feel that I'm like a girl hiding my sadness and disappointments behind smiles and laughter. Only some of them, some maybe like John who can really see that.. I am not alright.

It's been a fucking frustrating year for me. What more.? To be engaged in complicating stuffs.. and now.. I have to deal with the class seating. Why is everyone switching places so frequently that I have no constant place to sit. Seriously, why always me? I don't mind people sitting at my place but please.. at least ask my permission before you make that place YOURS. Look at the class seating please.

You know?

I didn't know who the fuck started this when all of a sudden, I realized that I was not seating with John anymore. My place had been illegally invaded. To top it all, I had become a Nomad since then, moving from places to places. I'm not an early-reacher.. I can't fight for a place to seat early. Most of the times, I had to deal with seating alone, and to tell you honestly, I can't stand being alone. Somehow, I slowly feel that I'm not that significant as an ehstrian, although to say the truth, I love everyone of them.

You know?

You can't fake feelings. No matter how good you are. It was a good day last Saturday playing basketball with Jian Wei and Khai Seong. Talking to them really helped me let go all of my thoughts and focus on my gameplay. To say the truth, I'm a bad basketballer myself.. playing averagely, selfish most of the time, not able to shoot, but alas I believe I'm a contributor to the team. Except during PJPK, which my teammates are normally worse.


Gosh..

Talking about contributing to the team.. I felt guilty for joining the Co2 Team. It's not my kind of thing and I'm dragged into the team to fill up their last man. I don't like it to say the truth. Although I'm assigned with the presentation job, I believe Zhong Yih can alone put up a better show and performance compared to me. So why did they choose me..? I seriously don't understand. Rainbow and Xiang got better quality, better mind set in winning things like these. Why did they pulled out and let me fill the last place.


It sucks being a guy who cares too much,
It just doesn't worth it.

It's fine getting hurt anywhere,
but the heart of a guy.

Peace out.