June 20th.. the day I had my last paper - Biology Unit 5; also the day I officially graduated from Help A-levels 13/14. It was a gruesome course throughout.. neverending tests, non-stop studying and revising every single day, just to remember every single word, formula orequation so that I would not fail my exams. Though it was unfortunate I had to retake a handful of papers, hoping that I can hit that overall A for all the four subjects.. nonetheless, I am just grateful that everything is over.
To sum it all, I had a great college life, with the combination of awesome and helpful friends, classmates and lecturers. Some of my classmates, I didn't think I would get along that well with them at first.. but it all turned out just fine. However, as I expected, unity as a class is near impossible and segregation of people based on language and topic still prevailed.
First and foremost, I would like to thank all my lecturers teachings and guidance for this 1.5 years. In my opinion, Mr Lim - my Physics lecturer, had given me the greatest motivation. In the beginning of A-levels, I didn't plan to do Physics at all and since Help did not allow simultaneously taking Biology and Economics, I was basically "forced" into the class.
Mr Lim had a very unique way of teaching.. and his broken English and weird phrasing of sentences made things easier to remember. He showed the power of reverse psychology but constantly using sarcasm towards our results.. sometimes it could be pretty harsh but as students we could understand what he was trying to do - He do not want us to regret in the future for not doing well. In his class, he calls me his Bio student.. and until now I still had no idea why am I the Bio student because clearly.. the time I did great for Bio was the very first test in class. -_- Occasionally, I would get the "bio student" words on the questions that I got 0 marks.. which was pretty funny and annoying at the same time.
Through this 1.5 years, I would say that my interest in Physics increased significantly.. but still not gonna take Engineering because my level of Mathematics will just rape me in Uni.
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Another thing worth mentioning was my dearest SASA group. We had been through thick and thin together.. going to orphanages, taking over the SASA carnival, organizing the SASA dinner.. even went to Langkawi together. Honestly, I had always felt like the cancer in the group.. as my mindset was like the other members in the organization - sit back, relax and leave the job to the rest. However, the moment I saw the dedication of the members of the group.. I have a feeling of guilt and shame. If anyone of you ever sees this, I would like you to accept my sincere apologies.
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1 month of exam was crazy enough. Most of my friends in high school asked me repeatedly that when was my exams going to end and all I could say was, not so soon. The fuck do Edexcel want? To cram all the Paper 5 sciences in 4 days, it just felt like a direct uppercut to the chin and a jab to the stomach. To make matters worse.. the first Unit 5 Chemistry paper was a appalling paper. It was doomed and I wondered if the examiner was drunk when he/she set the paper. In my whole life taking exams, I had never ever blanked so many questions.. even if I had no idea how to do, I would write something.. but this paper, I did not have a single idea how to even start answering. I had no idea how most of the students did but I know the chances of me screwing up its pretty high.
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Anyways, Help Academy had given me memories I had never experienced before. Using phone while teacher was teaching. Playing basketball right after the college ended. Driving through the car park filled with holes. Taking the shuttle bus which looked like it could breakdown anytime. Shoe hiding. Workout in class. Broken 3 water bottles. Mamak life. Rushing to Kana class every time after lunch. Pray that teacher is in a good mood. Played badminton together. Library life. Hunting for empty classes.. and many much more.
In the beginning, coming to Help seemed like a mistake but now, I appreciate all the time I spent studying here.
To me the ending of A-levels opens up to me a closer door to my dreams.. provided if i get a good result lol.. -_-
