What more can I say..?

It might looked like a typical day for you guys, but it was a emoish day for me. I did not know what happened to me at all, coming to class all down and tired, energy-sapped being not my usual self. After the BM period, I couldn't hold my feelings anymore and ran to the Prefect Room, and thank God, that's when I saw Chia's Gibson lying on the bench with the room totally empty.

So I jammed, alone, going from songs to songs that I had memorized from the past few years just so that I could lift my spirits up a little. I did a little medley of a few songs and solos and enjoyed my moment in the Prefect room, alone, with the fan and lights off for 30 minutes, with nothing but the sounds of my pick and the melody played through the vibration of strings.

This is what I played..
Pantera-Cowboys from Hell
A7x-Unholy Confessions, Afterlife solo
K-on!!-Utauyo Miracles!
An Cafe-Kakusei Heroism
Naruto-The Raising Fighting Spirit
Jerry C-Canon Rock
Ozzy Osbourne-Crazy Train with R.R solo

It was a rockish moment for me as I stomped along the beat as I rammed on the strings with my fingers sliding up and down from the neck like lightning. And at that moment, I noticed someone secretly watching me..

It was John.

"I knew you would be here.." he said.

At least, someone realized that I was gone for the whole morning and cared to find me. Then, he just walked into the prefect room and both of us started our 2-men conversation in the room. Gay.

Not long after, we ponteng-ed PK and went up to the corridor close to the block C mens' washroom.. our usual hiding spot to chat. We hopped onto topics to topics, some which are quite doleful, some jokerful.. haha.. anyways, I'm glad inside that there's someone to accompany me this morning. Thanks John.


I have no idea when did I start to post such posts. I mean, there's no much time left for me to be in my secondary school, not much time to hang around with all my beloved Esthrians, and by the time you know it, we will all be leaving school. After coming back for exams, we won't be seeing each other much d. Maybe for the first few years, we might stay in contact, but slowly we can see people, going overseas to study, migrating, or even just walk past you as if your a shadow..


Anyways, I just want to say something. Recently, our class came a very active member. Someone who would ditch his own class and just come into our class at every fucking minute. I just want to say that, fuck off and get back to your class kay? Its 5S3 for gods sake, and you are entering all the time. Its not like I have a problem with you or what. Its just that, there're people who are annoyed by the fact that outsiders keep entering our class and treating the class like theirs.



Okay, Peace V._.

Hopefully, I can get my guitar soon ah. Rawr..

And had to rush the song.. which I'm gonna perform soon.. @.@

Piling pressure, unbearable stress

The fact that I was in a happy-go-lucky-state-of-mind the past 3 weeks of the exams was not entirely true. It was quite a torture for me, both mentally and physically, with the later one the worse. What made it so torturous was that you could not do anything you want with freedom, the things which you did in between the exam period MUST be related to your exams. The great pressure from teachers and ultimately PARENTS was hard to bear.

It was a crazy week, with so many things happening. I was hoping that exam would come to an end as soon as possible and then I can finally play in peace and free of burden. Exam week? So what? It didn't stop me from playing games, watching television, blasting music so on and so forth. What I don't get was why some students who study study and study for the sake of the exams, getting good results when they didn't enjoy the process of it. It's completely useless to do something when you don't enjoy it.

Maybe because of these kind of mindset, I didn't do well for ALL my examinations. My results were average and I was never the outstanding one when my results were compared with the rest of the prefects in class. It's a fucked up fact that teachers often compare Prefects in class and limit the movement of Prefects in class. We are suppose to be at a slightly higher level then students as we are suppose to guide them. Yes. However, teachers should never ignore the fact that we are not completely saints and angels and can never break rules.

After my resignation as a Prefect, I let go a sigh of relief. Finally, I could get the same treatment as students. I no longer need to put on an act the way I am in class. Most importantly, I'm free of comparisons between me and my fellow prefect classmates.


Here I'm going to rant on a normally seen and heard topic which is the SKIPSCHOOL-TO-STUDY activity that half of the students in the school do. Mostly, those that who are under pressure and is going to evaporate. WHY? I don't get it, does results really mean that much to you? What is the point of isolating yourself at home just to study and get good results when you sacrifice the time being around with friends in the beloved class. I mean, Hey, how much can you study at home with all the distractions around? I say there's no way students can utilize the time spent at home completely to study.

Now that exam is over, I can finally play in peace. My current addiction is no other than Maplestory. And I will definitely get some chance to go the court and shoot some hoops. On Friday after the exam, I stayed back to play basketball with my gang of friends. It was really great to be able to sweat again after a long month of confining myself indoors. After playing for a while, I realized that my athleticism was gone and none of my attempts to score were successful. My movements were rusty and I didn't seem like a threat anymore. I couldn't jump high enough, I couldn't make a jumpshot, I couldn't make sure that my layups can go in.



The aftermath of exam,
Less mental and health abuse,
A more rusty body.

Answering the exam questions, I tend to look around, and there was always something somewhere that could make me smile. :)