My two cents.

A few more days and it's the reopening of college - yes, a series of hectic academic schedules accompanied by none other than the neverending stack of notes and homework. To be honest, I can't suppress my inner excitement at the idea of going back to college. It's definitely enough holidays for me until now, and thought that it will be a good time to quickly recover myself into the systematic lifestyle.

Lately, our country had been struck by the annual haze, though this time it seemed much more disastrous. From the day (About three days back) my neighbourhood, the Petaling Jaya area had been covered in this blurry and foul-smelling smoke, I started following the API indexes from the Malaysia Environment Website. To a surprise, I found out that the air here was at a near 200 rating which was labelled as Unhealthy.

From the website, I also found out that places nearby the coasts such as Port Klang, Muar and Kota Melaka had readings at about 400.

To clarify things up, the haze is caused by the open burning of the forests in the plantation area of Indonesia that leads to an inordinate of harmful gases being released into the atmosphere. These gases are carried by the flow of wind and subsequently affects the countries nearby the Indonesia. Recently, for such preposterous readings to show in the API,  no doubt, it caused the outrage of the citizens in the countries, namely Malaysia and Singapore. And now, the only thing that the local governments can do, is to point fingers at each other and expect the other party to resolve their issues.

When I first saw the news, 'Singapore government demand an apology from the Indonesian government' and later on, 'Indonesian Minister refuses to apologize', in my mind, I was thinking.. What a joke. I mean, instead of bringing shit up to the media and talk trash, the Sg government should at least like lend a hand and help with the issue, and not expect the other party to issue and apology to you when they're in the state of a mess and calamity.

As a follower of Yahoo News!, I also came across this issue which said that the opening burning of forests was operated by the Malaysian plantation companies located in Indonesia. However, that shouldn't be the excuse as the government of Indonesia has the utmost authority to issue a heavy fine to the companies involved. It always make me wonder why didn't they do that and continued to allow the situation to worsen day by day.

And then I realized the most logical and Malaysian way of doing things.

Rasuah.

Lazy Bug

Seeing my siblings all go back to school, I have nothing to do now for the rest of the month. Though that, I am very very lazy to work, and even feel reluctant to help my dad with his shop. (He tries to find an excuse for me to go to the shop). To say the truth, helping my dad will not gain me any experience.. in my honest opinion. 

To speak the truth, I'm not feeling bored at all for the holidays. I feel quite captivated and absorbed with the stuffs I do and WILL do. There seems to be a schedule fixed up for my holidays now and working doesn't fit into any of the time slot. 

Up to now, everyday I did a bit of gaming, a bit of comic, a bit of guitar and a bit of basketball. Now imagine that I allocate 2 hours for each of those, 8 hours would have passed by. I did this consistently for almost 3/4 of the week.. so I dare say that its quite productive the way I spend it. 

Why don't I work? My mindset is contrary to what the average young adults think. "Time to earn money and get some experience and buy all the stuffs I want". For me I look ahead and say.. I know that Sem 2 is gonna be way harsher than Sem 1 and after all the threats from my physics teacher, I really want to take the holiday just doing what I want to do.. as never know.. there might be no time for a life like this for the next few months and even the next few holidays.

Well, my whole family kinda call me a useless and lazy person now, but I guess I just have to bear with it. Lol :P

Great news is, soon my car's gonna arrive. It's a Toyota Vios.. totally different than the initial target Ford Focus. Well I guess having a car is better than none.. gotta make do with what I have now. 

The Last Thing..

The last thing I would want to cry for is my guitar.

Over the years, I had fostered a strong bond with all the guitars I used before.. and despite all the knocks and hits and the terrible scars on them, they played a part of my life. Although my guitar changes every now and then, occasionally I would use back some of my older guitars.

Now, this fucking thing happened. I dropped my guitar, and the guitar this time, is worth RM6000 and fortunately, one of the tuning pegs broke. My guitar stand was right by my side and as I realized that the DotA match was starting, I abruptly left my guitar there and guess what, I didn't realize I missed the base of the stand. After a while, my whole guitar, literally, came crashing to the ground.. and the next thing I saw.. was a broken tuning peg.

Fuck it.. I just feel like drowning myself right now. I have no idea what to tell Dad.

Fucking carelessness, fuck it all, fuck my life, just drown me alive.

Whenever I feel down, sad, broke up, emo, happy, I always play my guitar.

And now looking at my deformed partner, it is just so sad I can cut myself now.

I don't deserve to be a guitarist. fuck.