Release me..

Hmm..
It feels good to have friends that's still supporting your back..

12th July 2012, 10.18 pm...

One day gone since I came back from the extra-tiring schedule.. The CO2 Car Competition and the HnG music camp. It was quite an incredible experience, having to learn so much from these 2 memorable yet thrilling event.

Talking about the Co2 car, it was quite frustrating and we were down in the dumps right after our first presentation, as we thought, it was pretty unfair to us as the time given was not right. We didn't manage to present finish with the best effort. Not only that, the judges were ridiculous and weren't smart enough to understand the mechanism of our simple 0-budget car.. Screw it.

The racing competition went as expected. Our car did its best and we were very proud of our creation. Although it did not get the maximum points for the Furthest-Distance Run, it got pretty close to the Set-Distance (3m mark) part. For the others teams, Isabel's one did great but it was not enough to compete with the rest. However, Shin Yin's group fall short, and many believed that their luck unfortunately ran out. Also, I reunited with some of my primary schoolmates, who also came for the competition. Their car wasn't that successful, and I was having a good laugh with them there. Their teammates were extremely humerous and joker. For your information, the presentations and racing took about 1/2 our time there. We were in Taylor's for about 8 hours but the actual competition time was only 4.. or maybe less. For the other time, most of the teams used it to prepare and remodify their car to increase its speed, reduce its mass.. or whatever. Unlike them, we, the Coveready, just slacked all along, sleeping, playing games, chatting and also dancing to the Sexy and I Know It.

Yep it was an amazing experience. Rawr.

On the next day of the competition came the camp.. and it was a very heartwarming camp not to mention I got to play on Chia's Gibson Les Paul <3.

It was my first time overnighting in my friend's home and sure my parents didn't like it.

This week was a gloomy week for me.. Especially with the effing ulcers on my mouth. I couldn't speak clearly or even have a glass of water without enduring the intense pain. I couldn't laugh, which I do most of the times. Also, I didn't get to compete in the inter-class basketball competition.. which may be my last basketball competition in school. Haiz.. sometimes I just wish I was better so I can lead my class as a team, but no.. our class lacks of what we call integration. Khai Seong and the s9 team made it into the Finals tomorrow. It will sure gonna be a match that brings pure entertainment and team spirit, with s9's court leader Tat Shing.

Oh well, all the best to them and hopefully my ulcer is gonna recover soon. Gah..

Prom prom prom.. The news of prom was spreading in my class and quickly became the hot topic. My table of classmates had already settled down but the other group hasn't. Though surprisingly, most of them already got partners and still wanna ffk.. LOL.

Gah.. now think about it.. most people already got a partner..

Shall I take a step forward too?

Everyday is a brand new day..

It's time to leave the memories behind and start to move on..


2nd July 2012, 9.55pm..

It's the second day of the last term of my final school year. It's time where we can see people start to pour in effort in their work and studies and stuffs. This is where we can see true friendships that count, people who would lend you a hand when you're down. Sometimes, deep down inside, I feel that I'm like a girl hiding my sadness and disappointments behind smiles and laughter. Only some of them, some maybe like John who can really see that.. I am not alright.

It's been a fucking frustrating year for me. What more.? To be engaged in complicating stuffs.. and now.. I have to deal with the class seating. Why is everyone switching places so frequently that I have no constant place to sit. Seriously, why always me? I don't mind people sitting at my place but please.. at least ask my permission before you make that place YOURS. Look at the class seating please.

You know?

I didn't know who the fuck started this when all of a sudden, I realized that I was not seating with John anymore. My place had been illegally invaded. To top it all, I had become a Nomad since then, moving from places to places. I'm not an early-reacher.. I can't fight for a place to seat early. Most of the times, I had to deal with seating alone, and to tell you honestly, I can't stand being alone. Somehow, I slowly feel that I'm not that significant as an ehstrian, although to say the truth, I love everyone of them.

You know?

You can't fake feelings. No matter how good you are. It was a good day last Saturday playing basketball with Jian Wei and Khai Seong. Talking to them really helped me let go all of my thoughts and focus on my gameplay. To say the truth, I'm a bad basketballer myself.. playing averagely, selfish most of the time, not able to shoot, but alas I believe I'm a contributor to the team. Except during PJPK, which my teammates are normally worse.


Gosh..

Talking about contributing to the team.. I felt guilty for joining the Co2 Team. It's not my kind of thing and I'm dragged into the team to fill up their last man. I don't like it to say the truth. Although I'm assigned with the presentation job, I believe Zhong Yih can alone put up a better show and performance compared to me. So why did they choose me..? I seriously don't understand. Rainbow and Xiang got better quality, better mind set in winning things like these. Why did they pulled out and let me fill the last place.


It sucks being a guy who cares too much,
It just doesn't worth it.

It's fine getting hurt anywhere,
but the heart of a guy.

Peace out.