Graduation.. PART 1

I graduated..

I should be happy, I should be excited knowing that the much-hyped college life is within reach.

However, It turned out to be opposite.

The truth is, I don't wanna leave the school. I can't imagine life without uniforms. Life without Principal's speech every monday morning. Life without meetings. Life without Prefect Camps. Life without Prefectorial Board. Life without the GAY clan. Life without basketballing in the indoor Sports Centre. Life without HnG room.

Especially these 2 years, Life without Ehstrians.



I am sad, if not depressed. Although my face don't show any expression, it doesn't mean my heart inside was tough. I was terribly weeping inside. These 2 years the memories had been deeply engraved in my mind, burnt into my soul, stuck to me like a tattoo. These 2 years, had been I life changing one for me, and my classmates taught me a lot, a lot.. brought me painful, stinging experience and also those that could light a smile on my face whenever I thought of it before I got to bed.

Its fairly impossible to think that when I first saw the list of my Form 4 class, I was in the verge of throwing vulgars at my friends, complaining that none of them were in my class and how fucked up am I to be allocated into such a class with a bunch of not known people. I thought I was doomed to be in 4s3, a mistake, those who I thought was 'fun' people was sent to different classes, classes which differ from mine. That moment, I thought I was alone.


However, my opinions towards this class turned out wrong. Wrong at the right way.

It turned out to be a class, not awesome, but a class where you can see true friendships, and people who were desperate to pull the class together and got everyone involve. People who tried to bring the unsociable to contribute their part in our 5s3 family.

My seating in the class was fixed by Yeo Chun Huay, also called John. The day before school opening, I was asked by him to sit together. At first, I doubted him.. I thought it would be boring to sit with a guy who sticks to girls all the time. I wanted to sit with Mun Chun at first to be honest, but he rejected me by saying he would be sitting with a lenglui who turned out to be Yi Lin at last.

Fine.

By the start of first day of 4s3, I made my way to Zhong Yih and bear hugged him. He didn't look surprise though.. I guess he researched about me before haha. Zhong Yih gave me a lot of stress, being the other Prefect who had the potential to produce brilliant results and overshadow my presence in class. And through enough, result-wise I definitely got overshadowed lol.

In class I sat somewhere near the exit.. (SERIOUSLY GOOD CHOICE OF SEATING MAN).. and I was silent the whole way and John decided to start the conversation. Ended up with us talking music and he complaint that I didn't know any pop and only know Japanese music. And that time I realized someone was eavesdropping on us and turned.. and it was none-other then Kit Yan. Well I got off John then and started talking to her.. :p Beside Kit Yan was Lii Xiang, the quite famous girl which I heard her name coiple of times but didn't see her before.. and I finally did. :)

Friendship with Alvin and Xin Ying started off by fixing Xin Ying's little teddy key chain which had a broken arm. Me and Alvin did her a favour by fixing it back and our friendship had started ever since. Xiao Qi became my lil sis not long after, which I didnt know how we know each other.

Yim, Yung Ming Timothy got our first laugh during Michael's running practice, which Yim completely made fun of Timothy's running form with Me and Yung Ming laughing our assess off beside. Talking about Sports, my friendship with the gang started out no other than basketball. There's a lot of floor generals in basketball, Chee Seng, Phang Hoong, Zhi Sheng, all three played for the same school since primary definitely showed their potential on the court.

Also, there's also a girl which I always called nicknames like.. 'PEI GUN' and KHOO.. which was funny and thank god they didn't hate me for calling them names. Eventually, Khoo called me NG all the time and we both ended up laughing. These 2 have their very own BFF.. Pei Jean was partnered with the Soap Lady Xing Yi, and Mei Xin was partnered up with Sue Ann, the one with low laughing point and her face gets red hot really easily weih XD.

During exam, I have Esther sitting behind me, who was a very cautious person in my view. She was darn scard to lend me anything at the risk of being caught. Come on its just roller wat. XD In class sitting beside Esther was Mein Teng, one of the great artists in class. Oh yeah, talking about artists, there's Song Zhe, the president of the Creative Club and Wushu Club.. who seemed flawless in his singing too. Along side him was Weng Fai, my cubemaster 2.0. They were a friendly and caring bunch. During my 2 years birthday, they gave me stationaries as gifts as they knew that, I would always be lending things. Bad habit yo. ><

Also, I had Bra, a guy who's proudly gay.. and was one of the warmest guy which I had ever hugged. Despite his criticism, which mostly just joking. He present himself as one of the most caring friend, in my heart.

5S3 came soon after..

There were some friends which I often talked to them in this year..

Hmm.. let's off with Angeline then, who was famous for her Shark name (Shak) and the shark fin soup. Yum. :P Following Shak was our class very own Rainbow and YiLinGen. Hahaha.

Also there's also potential singers and future star like Yin Yin, who's excelled in both singing and studying. She had a great partner beside her, and someone who backed her up in the Idols group singing. They are surely angelic that day :P

This year, I came close with a friend call Tien Sern, who I recently found out had a strong desire to play basketball. After the year end exam, we often skipped our recess to play ball in the Sports Center, with the risk of being caught.

I also had a 'Da Jie' in Li Wen. A girl who always bully me de.. haha. And beside her was Hui Zhi, also known as Birdie, Mr Chan's right hand woman. :) Also, not to be missed out on was our Weng Hei and Sin Che.. who used the word 'Dear' to call their own man.. Zhong Yih and Tien Sern hahaha.

There's another part which form the three man trio, which was Jin Tao, Shan Li and Tek. Those 3 were gamers and their laughter could be heard occasionally in class.Not to mention, Timothy should also the get the 'No Change Place Since The Day I Enter School award'.. also introducing our lead dancer.. Au Yong and one of the most underseen guy Jia Wei.

Last but no least its the 2 important person who accompanied me from day one. Isabel also called Bel, had been my exam mate sitting in front of me and one of my best and sincere friends throughout the years. Eng Ngee, my calculator, sitting 2 seats behind of me, was one of my good friends, who was also pure in mind. :P

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For those of who know me fairly well,

I'm those people who likes to complain about how unfair the world is, and can't take seeing people suffering from unfairness..

Even seeing someone being attack, no matter verbally or physically, I always have the urge to step up and fight for their rights.

And just now, I exploded again, towards my family members.


Fuck it.

I had no idea what ran through my brain.

Taller than me.. so what? Can you elevate higher than me?

12am..

It's almost been a week now since PMR started.. Glad to see that my sister's doing fine .. as expected. Her diligence and perseverance definitely gonna benefit her in the exams, considering the fact its easy to strike a streak of brilliant results in this non-challenging exam.

Well, the only challenging part are the languages only I guess.

Come to think of it, the ongoing of the PMR exams is signalling that the exam I'm gonna face is coming not long after. Not months, but just weeks after. The fact that I'm sitting here all relaxed and chilled shows that I'm obviously not prepared at all. Lol. I think this will be the same as other times, waiting for the eleventh hour to push myself all the way. It's been a bad habit since maybe Form 2 which I started studying midnight. Before Form 2, there's just no studying at all. :)


Remember I broke my specs and gone partially blind the whole time during Yung Ming's party?.. Yeah I came out with a 3-spec rotation after that. I made a new pair of specs for studying purposes which is white in colour. Well, the optician actually convinced me to choose white instead of my typical silvery outlook. "Wear white when you still have a chance, grow older then you will miss it.." True enough, my mom tested it.. and chaos happened.

Who knew that Contact Lens could be such a disappointment. I was well with hope that contact lens can cut me some slack and it turned out to be a lot of hard work by just learning how to wear it. Gawd.

Calamity did fell upon me when there was once, it was causing me great pain after putting in the lens. Shit. And the problem was I could not take it out no matter how hard I tried. Eventually, I got fucking worried and was panicking. Then I realized Chia Min (Biology tuition-mate) was whatsapp-ing me.. and ended up asking for help. I was sending a lot of crappy panicking sentences to her.. short and filled with fear. All she replied was CHILL, CALM DOWN, PINCH UR LENS OUT. and all I said was ITS NOT COMING OUT DAM IT..

Well the whole situation lasted for 30 minutes when I somehow managed to scratch it out I think. Ended up my eye got red and pain. Ended up doubting myself whether was I cut out for the lenses ot not. Sigh..


Nothing much to worry not, except exams coming..

Hopefully can get back to school as quick as possible, I'm growing mushrooms at home.. Agh..

Bullet through my head..

Just came back from Yung Ming's Post Exam BBQ party. Gladly, everything was a success. Despite the fact that my specs broke just at the start of the party, everything went on just fine. In fact, I managed to hold the broke piece of it together by using tape. It was definitely a field day to me, to be able to party with almost all the classmates, joking, laughing, shouting. Every moment we shared was ineffable and not to mention, incredible.

I was the first one to reach his house in the morning, at around 10.45 a.m. I went out with my dad who was heading for work, so it was easy for him to just drop me off at the place. So, there I was in Mah's house, chatting and also playing with his dog, Doggie. The dog is energetic and also adorable and doesn't bite. Every time, playing with other dogs made me think of my scar on my thumb which was scarred by no other my dog.

Basketball was fun and energy-sapping. Had to chase for the ball all the time, make a couple of block shots and some assist. I didn't play up to my standard today, sadly, kept making dribbling mistakes. Maybe, still hadn't got through the post-exam syndrome ba. Seeing friends on court going all out, I was relieved. That's the way people should play basketball. Love the intensity of the game.

Anyways up to results update. I didn't get what I had expected.. however everything turned out great due to the fact that I didn't really studied for my mid term. Well, hopefully I can do well for my SPM ba.. Gambateh. :D

School decided to come out with a Chinese Intensive Class. Just like I said before, I couldn't wait to graduate from this school. Thinking of school decided not to help the weaker ones in the Chinese Language. Wad the Fux is school thinking at this moment. Trying to make the best one better to cover the weaker ones? Trying to raise reputation in school? I mean, everybody should have the same treatment, no matter you're good or bad in academic. The school should be sagacious, and put emphasis on the students authority. This is why we chose to study in this school. To get good quality education to improve ourselves.

Fair education. I didn't deserve it? Maybe they think those who couldn't reach their expectations were hopeless. Nothing could help them anymore and not a single fux was given whether had they passed or not..

Sigh. What happened to our beloved school.

Well Pei Jean if you're ever reading this blog. Happy Belated Birthday! :D


Last but not least,

Rip Specs, gotta make a pair of new ones 2moro. :)