I am not alone, I have my brotherhood.

To those who don't know, I have a big brotherhood. This group is very special to me.. knowing when to have fun, knowing when to comfort, talking straight foward, zat straight forward, never reluctant to teach each other skills in games, bring up stories of their trips, lives or experience.

This is what I call true brother. Those who know how to criticize, those who know when to have fun, and when to keep yourself in check. When to hold their words, when to give ideas.

Fortunately for me, I have a lot of brothers, those that can share a conversation with and those that help me through high seas and deep hell.

However, this special group is able to take it to another level. The experience we share throughout the year never stops. From them, I learnt a lot, and gain numerous knowledge in various field. It's fun listening them to talk as they speak with their mind, and never fail to motivate someone. Although all of us eventually hopped on to different classes, we still share the same relationship between each other.

After my last SPM Paper, Biology, I along with the whole bunch went to our so-called leader's house, Dragon. 7 of us fitted in the tiny little Myvi on our back home, which was a bit.. Yeah. As soon as we reached his house, we got on to a movie -- a movie related to the Chinese History which all of them spoke the ancient language.

Later on, we planned to play some basketball, but seeing there were people already there, we had to go on to play something else. Hmm, and we came up with something stupid.. nevertheless had lots of fun.

Rain soon fell and lightning struck.. we had to crawl back into the shelter. That was when Yi Zen started dominating the piano, spamming deafening themes of songs ranging from different genres while the rest of us sat around and had some nutmeg juice. :)

It was onto sometime around 7.30 that we had got the chance to have dinner since lunch in Murni, a mamak restaurant. It was a surprised to me that, the prices of the food costed cheap as compared to its per serving/portion. We called about 11 dishes of food man, consisting of Naan, Cabonara, Omelette, Chicken Chop, Nasi Lemak and Roti Special. About 2 dishes of each kind. Also, we ordered some drinks with some special name and I swear its called I love you, I miss you, I kiss you and Pink Panther. Lol. After so much dinner, the total amount of the whole dinner was only Rm140!

Later, they all came to my house and that's when all hell broke loose. They all started rolling on my bed, playing with my guitar, dota, throw my plushies around. Eventually, we got too noisy and I shifted everything up to the highest floor. Guess what, everything is still god damn loud. Everything calmed a little when I tried to lower the volume of everyone. The activities at night gone on pretty smoothly and fun packed.

We played Poker, Jammed on Seize The Day with Looloo and Me on the acoustic and electric guitars, played Jay Chou's songs through the amp the whole night. Chatted a lot, criticized a lot. It was a memorable night. I laughed the whole night through, it was hilarious. Everyone there had a touch of humour in their talk and none of the conversation was stoppable.

Hmm, let me update you about the people staying overnight.

Initially there was 2, which I actually limited it myself with Yi Zen and Lian Jiet only. However, plans had changed drastically and everyone present there ended up staying overnight.

Me, Yi Zen, Hsien Loong, Lian Jiet, Theng Hoong, Mun Chun, Loo Loo

7 man one room. End up the noise had exceeded way past its limits. :P

After 3, all of us starting to fall asleep one by one,

with Mun Chun heading to back first followed by Yi Zen and I. 3 of us slept in the same room. Then, Hsien Loong and Loo Loo went to sleep in the other room. AT 4, TWO GAYS FINALLY DECIDED TO GO TO SLEEP.

This is what happened,

both rooms have queen sized beds available for 2.
Each bed can fit 2 ppl.
What happened was Yi Zen slept and took over the whole bed of our room.

Ended up, 3 of the other man actually slept together on the same bed in the same room with no Air Cond on. (Dragon offed it because its too closed). Gay.


I had a deep sleep.. its been a long time sleeping under the air cond. I woke up at the sound of dragon.

It was 9 a.m. Gawd not even 7 hours of sleep.

There I go, waking up blurry eyes and saw Yi Zen and Mun Chun already awaken. Immediately I got up and went next door to check on the rest and found some of them snoring. Haha.. what a great way to start the day.

So well we joked around for the whole morning pretty much. After eating my mother's breakfast, we went on to One U for a movie and later.. back home.


This is the first time letting people overnight in my house. I'm glad that everyone had a field day.. especially all of us being able to gel together well and laugh along the same line. There was nothing breaking the flow of night. On the other hand, I also learnt how to play poker.. Wahaha, and was able to win some by luck. :P


This is what I call brotherhood. This is what I call having fun together.

Looking forward to the V-Camp.

Because..

It's those little things that matters the most.. :(:

Because..

That smile..

Is just what I wanted to see..



Back to some revision..

When I'm Gone..

But what happens when karma turns right around and bite you?
And everything you stand for turns on you to spite you?

-When I'm Gone lyrics

I think its the best song I've heard from Eminem. A sad soul inside a rapper's body.


I'm mentally stressed out these days, partly with my online game and the exam. I didn't take any naps at all coming back from school every evening. There's no time anyways.. I do not like taking naps at 4p.m coming back from school. It's shitty man.. I don't like waking up at night.. and have to stay awake for a couple hours before falling into my rapid-eye-movement sleep.

Mentally stressed out, physically I'm down too, having no time to do sports nowadays. But if I do get the chance, it's going down HARD. Loving the intensity of competition heh. Well, the main reason of not doing any sports is because I do not want to injure myself.. Especially my fingers and also my already-injured left knee. It's the 3rd year getting along with the occasionally-dislocated-left knee. Dislocation sounds painful right. Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu dipikul. The feeling is hell, its like a time bomb- can happy anywhere, any time and any slight movement will trigger it. The worst part is you had to relocate it back again by stretching ur leg straight and wait for the ligaments to pull and click the bones together.

It hinders my movement. My vertical jumps are limited. Any two foot action sport can possibly catch my knee by accident. and I think, it would be impossible to fix it back..



SPM Papers are breezing past me like wind, true enough, neither do I feel the anxiety or the stress coming my way. Everything, just storm pass me and neither did I persevere in any of them. Just took things my way, the light way. This attitude of facing exam sure is relax, but can be costly. Well, its just SPM.. that's what I thought.. it could never be any harder than our school..

True enough, its near impossible to compare the standards of SPM to our CHS.. it is a definite striking contrast.


Recently, I keep dreaming..
And somehow, I realized the it was a dream when I was in my dream..
However, I couldn't really control my movement.. but could hear what was I saying in the conversations between me and my dream..
It was something like an RPG game... but mostly I dreamed of my friends around me.

Sometimes, it was a terrible nightmare, as I dreamed of pretty unpleasant things..
Sometimes, it was something shocking yet.. too good to be true.

Everything seemed so good.. but in the end, I woke up and everything was a dream, non-existing yet so real.


Sometimes, you get the feeling you regretted waking up..as

It might be the last time that,

everything went perfectly right.




And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back.

So smile more yo.. :)

Dear Agony..

Yes, lately, I keep craving for songs from Breaking Benjamin's Dear Agony album. It's pretty heavy alright, but heavy with emotion.. with sadness.


Okay, let's go on.

Today, I have the sudden urge to update my blog, though, I had no idea wad should I really type about. Well, I shall go on with a summary with what I did.. today.

So, this evening, I went for a movie in 1U with my family and couz -- Skyfall. It's a pretty thrilling movie. Very unexpected events. Though, the starting was like an ending. It started with a fight, and agent 007 got shot and dived into the water. Then, the next 5 minutes, I ended up watching the credits and hearing the Skyfall theme.. -_-.. which almost made me fell asleep. The rest of the movie was awesome though. Cool gadgets, Traps everywhere. Sick. It's a must watch. :)


Sky.. why you keep crying? :(

It's not weird that the sky's raining so frequently this period.. However, the change was definitely drastic. It could be sunny for a while, and a heavy downpour follow after. Every day, I lie deadly on my bed, holding my reference book high up in the air, browsing through the pages, I could always hear sudden deafening thunder roaring. And all of a sudden, boom, the electricity was all gone and I ended up in the dark.

The dark.. Not a friendly place for me.. Hahaha.

The dark always brought memories back to my Form 2 Prefect Camp. We were suppose to track up a super slope hill, and I still remembered I missed grabbing the guiding rope and almost slip and fell off the steep path. Luckily, Gan (Wei Jian)caught my hand and I did not tumble down the slope. LOL

Pretty weird that my blur nature haven't change till now. Bad Sign. Sigh Sigh..

Apart from studying and waiting for SPM to end in coming weeks, I had figure out a plan for post SPM. Well, the plan shall be revealed soon bah, since there's one more holiday for me to plan out my routine. :p

Wahaha..

Actually feel quite good lately.. XD

End here bah.. :)