Yes, finally know how to sing. What an accomplishment.. haha.. Nothing feels better to be able to sing and express your feelings through songs and pieces.
Yes, apparently, somehow, feelings can overflow. That, brings out tears of agony, pain, frustration.
Well, that's actually part of the game. Since part of your feelings are dedicated to the song.
So yeah, the 2nd round of idol ended up with four Emo guys, singing a fucking emo song.. by no other than the Prince of Love Song. Well, we kinda screwed it up but not as badly as we thought. Wyn Yun, somehow raised his volume to the max, covering mine. == Eff. So emo for what Wyn Yun, me volume 5 you straight shoot to volume 10. Yan Wong..
Lethargic and Sleepy..
But, don't wanna sleep now. I'm a bad bad boy.. >:D.
Somehow, dad didn't pull plug today, not yet I guess.
So why not spend a bit more time on the internet, before I have another 5 days break?
Well, somehow the responsibility of studying starts to set into me.
Enough of wasted light.
Gonna start studying soon.
It's really frustrating to see myself in this position.
Struggling to get good results while my siblings actually made everything look simple.
Jayden: 21st Edane: 5th Enson: 2nd
Yes, comparison between 3 of us are like that,
normally I'm the one whom always get overshadowed due to my lack of ability to implant good grades in my report card.
Year by year, it's like that.
Sigh..
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Friday, March 23, 2012
Fight.
When you thought that, nothing could be any worse than the demon inside you.
Boom.
Your exam results came out. It's good for you to get a eye-pleasing two-digit score, but in my case, it's appalling. Really appalling. In my opinion by the way. Dang, how can.. Really screw this term. I did badly in Mathematics, my languages were a downfall, my chem was literally shit. Thank god, my Bio and Physics were a booster dose. But was it enough to cover the hole I actually dug for myself? I doubt.
Gosh, when I always turn and look to my right, I always feel morose. Hey, my bro John is actually overtaking me already, working hard, studying, and when I look at myself, I see a guy, always get stuck up with emotional problems.
No more though, somehow, I feel that my ohm is coming. Maybe it's just me. After being present in the Edufair in Klcc. I somehow found an aim for myself and go on to my psychopath. (yes the Gazette).. physchological* studies.
To pursue my studies, it will take a lot of hard work.
It's more than just saying..
You have to actually work hard for it.
It's life. (:
Sorry for the abrupt ending but, gotta go sleep now dam tired.
Bye laptop, Hi sleep goddess. Let's sleep XD
Boom.
Your exam results came out. It's good for you to get a eye-pleasing two-digit score, but in my case, it's appalling. Really appalling. In my opinion by the way. Dang, how can.. Really screw this term. I did badly in Mathematics, my languages were a downfall, my chem was literally shit. Thank god, my Bio and Physics were a booster dose. But was it enough to cover the hole I actually dug for myself? I doubt.
Gosh, when I always turn and look to my right, I always feel morose. Hey, my bro John is actually overtaking me already, working hard, studying, and when I look at myself, I see a guy, always get stuck up with emotional problems.
No more though, somehow, I feel that my ohm is coming. Maybe it's just me. After being present in the Edufair in Klcc. I somehow found an aim for myself and go on to my psychopath. (yes the Gazette).. physchological* studies.
To pursue my studies, it will take a lot of hard work.
It's more than just saying..
You have to actually work hard for it.
It's life. (:
Sorry for the abrupt ending but, gotta go sleep now dam tired.
Bye laptop, Hi sleep goddess. Let's sleep XD
Saturday, March 17, 2012
Take a fall.
I just realized how guys just couldn't forget the ones that they had cared about, loved, and created memories with before.
I had known some of them. And I could see, they still couldn't remove the stained spots that the previous one had walked pass.
No, I refuse. I refuse to end up like that.
Fuck.
Seriously fuck it.
Tried hard for something, failed.
Tried hard to win something, failed.
Tried my best to change, failed.
Tried my best to communicate, failed.
Geez. How screwed my girl-handling skills can be.
Ahh. Just like what John said, Girls can never be understand. TYPICAL GUYS AGREE ON THAT except those who think like girls. I don't fucking care wether offense is taken but that's the truth.
Gah,
there's one statement that I had received for quite sometime now,
and I'm gonna cling on to that until the right time comes.
"Bro, You deserve better.."
It's wonderful how lyrics can affect one's thought..
seriously God,
I pray,
Let me break through this stumble
and let me come back ten times as hard, strong and powerful.
But firstly, Remove from me this deception I called love.
I had known some of them. And I could see, they still couldn't remove the stained spots that the previous one had walked pass.
No, I refuse. I refuse to end up like that.
Fuck.
Seriously fuck it.
Tried hard for something, failed.
Tried hard to win something, failed.
Tried my best to change, failed.
Tried my best to communicate, failed.
Geez. How screwed my girl-handling skills can be.
Ahh. Just like what John said, Girls can never be understand. TYPICAL GUYS AGREE ON THAT except those who think like girls. I don't fucking care wether offense is taken but that's the truth.
Gah,
there's one statement that I had received for quite sometime now,
and I'm gonna cling on to that until the right time comes.
"Bro, You deserve better.."
It's wonderful how lyrics can affect one's thought..
seriously God,
I pray,
Let me break through this stumble
and let me come back ten times as hard, strong and powerful.
But firstly, Remove from me this deception I called love.
Thursday, March 15, 2012
If I'd never let you go..
Whew.. Just came back from the annual Prefect Trip. 光阴似箭..this would be my last Prefect Trip with my fellow colleagues and juniors. How time passes so fast, it's my last year in this school, last year taking the crazy examinations, last year creating memories in this school. AGHHHHHHHH.. there's so much things to do, like bringing the class team to a medal in basketball. (:
Gah, the Prefect Trip was awesome shit. The place was Broga Hills, small, but filled with activities. Stunningly. The dorm's not bad too yo, and the toilet's okay. Okay, so I actually got to sleep with my usual gang of prefects, Wei Jian, Lenian, Hushil, Zhong Yih. Haha. Definitely LMAO moments there. A lot of perverted talks and sick thoughts in the room. Not a room for pure people.
So, I didn't involve myself much for EVERYTHING. Just, Wei Teen the hell scard me off during the first night. I'm freaked out due to the horror music she's been showing me at 10a.m. Meh!.. Ohmaigawd. That made me cover my ears for most of the time at the basketball court. Thank God, Zhong Yih was by myside all the time.
God shit, being alone at the basketball with only a few lights on in the middle of the night was scary.
Apparently, we had to stay on the whole night for some discussion, which I failed to stay up.. Not me only though, a few of us didn't manage it. We loitered all around the room, jumping up and down just to keep ourselves awake for the briefings. Little did I know that the committee need to do such stuffs! Torturous!
At 3 a.m I finally collapsed.. and had to head back to bed and sleep. I couldn't take it. I slept 4 hours the previous night and woke up to watch Arsenal. Now another sleepless night? No way. At last, I managed to fight for at least 3 hours of sleep and I bet that the next day isn't going to be any easier.
True enough, Food finding and amazing race sapped the energy all out of me. I was a body without a soul. Dang.. Firstly, I was on duty with Yin Jun at a station filled with flour, beans and garlic. And yeah, we were hiding those beans ( 4 different types ) and seperated garlic all under a whole basin of flour. They were supposed to use their mouth ONLY to reach down and actually, scoop up the floor and the beans..
Food finding worked this way,
For each 20 beans of the same kind found, they will get 500 working moneh..
And for teams who collected the most monneh, they get the most points. (:
Later on,
I was on station with Zhong Yih, playing breadworms. Ohmygosh.. all the live breadworms were freaky at first.. Seriously. Wiggle. There were 5 boxes, with each box ranging from 20-30 worms. I was shocked at the sight of such big fat worms, totally a direct contrast from the previous camps, which the worms were much smaller and minute.
Shit. Huge worms, now what.
Okay, before game started, we poured two boxes of live worms into the basin, taking up about 1/10 of the basin. Apparently, 3 other boxes had died soon before we even used it. Screw. So Zhong Yih killed the other 2 boxes by filling up the whole basin filled with water, drowning them instantaneously. The mixture of worms and water was not a pleasing sight, for me and for juniors. Zhong Yih seemed okay with it though. Brave much.
A lot of screams came along as our juniors settled themselves for the game. The task here, was too balance the basin with their legs, with the legs off the ground, and the ass on the ground. The game ends when they successfully sang the whole school anthem with worms and water as distraction.
I'm scard of worms too eh. So, my job's to spray water on every one of them. Meanwhile, Zhong Yih spilled worms on them. Holishyt..
BBQ Party.
Okay, drama night again.. I was staring at first, until I slowly slowly dozed off. Eventually, my whole dorm mates suggested to return to the dorm. So, off we went to the dorm to sleep, leaving the other committees behind.
I'm so sorry.. ><
Mountain climbing on the third day was sick. Waking up at 5.30 a.m, I shared a can of Livita with Wei Jian.. (Thanks yo) and stumbled and fell all the way up the mountain. It was steep alright, got to get behind the juniors to help them. Those without sports shoes were a mess, as I could see some of them wearing converse or maybe Nike, trying to hike up the mountain were to no avail. Sigh.
So, that's about it from the committee point of view.
I take back my words, letting go isn't that easy.
Every time I looked at the picture she drew for me which I sticked on my wall,
I'm at the verge of tears.
Why? What's wrong? Things were still not very clear to me.
I had no idea what happened. She did not tell me anything. She did not want to tell me anything. How do I know what's she thinking..?
If there's one more chance to tan bai anything. I would tell her.
Hey. You changed.
And if there's a chance that you would return..
I promise you I'd never let you go.
Gah, the Prefect Trip was awesome shit. The place was Broga Hills, small, but filled with activities. Stunningly. The dorm's not bad too yo, and the toilet's okay. Okay, so I actually got to sleep with my usual gang of prefects, Wei Jian, Lenian, Hushil, Zhong Yih. Haha. Definitely LMAO moments there. A lot of perverted talks and sick thoughts in the room. Not a room for pure people.
So, I didn't involve myself much for EVERYTHING. Just, Wei Teen the hell scard me off during the first night. I'm freaked out due to the horror music she's been showing me at 10a.m. Meh!.. Ohmaigawd. That made me cover my ears for most of the time at the basketball court. Thank God, Zhong Yih was by myside all the time.
God shit, being alone at the basketball with only a few lights on in the middle of the night was scary.
Apparently, we had to stay on the whole night for some discussion, which I failed to stay up.. Not me only though, a few of us didn't manage it. We loitered all around the room, jumping up and down just to keep ourselves awake for the briefings. Little did I know that the committee need to do such stuffs! Torturous!
At 3 a.m I finally collapsed.. and had to head back to bed and sleep. I couldn't take it. I slept 4 hours the previous night and woke up to watch Arsenal. Now another sleepless night? No way. At last, I managed to fight for at least 3 hours of sleep and I bet that the next day isn't going to be any easier.
True enough, Food finding and amazing race sapped the energy all out of me. I was a body without a soul. Dang.. Firstly, I was on duty with Yin Jun at a station filled with flour, beans and garlic. And yeah, we were hiding those beans ( 4 different types ) and seperated garlic all under a whole basin of flour. They were supposed to use their mouth ONLY to reach down and actually, scoop up the floor and the beans..
Food finding worked this way,
For each 20 beans of the same kind found, they will get 500 working moneh..
And for teams who collected the most monneh, they get the most points. (:
Later on,
I was on station with Zhong Yih, playing breadworms. Ohmygosh.. all the live breadworms were freaky at first.. Seriously. Wiggle. There were 5 boxes, with each box ranging from 20-30 worms. I was shocked at the sight of such big fat worms, totally a direct contrast from the previous camps, which the worms were much smaller and minute.
Shit. Huge worms, now what.
Okay, before game started, we poured two boxes of live worms into the basin, taking up about 1/10 of the basin. Apparently, 3 other boxes had died soon before we even used it. Screw. So Zhong Yih killed the other 2 boxes by filling up the whole basin filled with water, drowning them instantaneously. The mixture of worms and water was not a pleasing sight, for me and for juniors. Zhong Yih seemed okay with it though. Brave much.
A lot of screams came along as our juniors settled themselves for the game. The task here, was too balance the basin with their legs, with the legs off the ground, and the ass on the ground. The game ends when they successfully sang the whole school anthem with worms and water as distraction.
I'm scard of worms too eh. So, my job's to spray water on every one of them. Meanwhile, Zhong Yih spilled worms on them. Holishyt..
BBQ Party.
Okay, drama night again.. I was staring at first, until I slowly slowly dozed off. Eventually, my whole dorm mates suggested to return to the dorm. So, off we went to the dorm to sleep, leaving the other committees behind.
I'm so sorry.. ><
Mountain climbing on the third day was sick. Waking up at 5.30 a.m, I shared a can of Livita with Wei Jian.. (Thanks yo) and stumbled and fell all the way up the mountain. It was steep alright, got to get behind the juniors to help them. Those without sports shoes were a mess, as I could see some of them wearing converse or maybe Nike, trying to hike up the mountain were to no avail. Sigh.
So, that's about it from the committee point of view.
I take back my words, letting go isn't that easy.
Every time I looked at the picture she drew for me which I sticked on my wall,
I'm at the verge of tears.
Why? What's wrong? Things were still not very clear to me.
I had no idea what happened. She did not tell me anything. She did not want to tell me anything. How do I know what's she thinking..?
If there's one more chance to tan bai anything. I would tell her.
Hey. You changed.
And if there's a chance that you would return..
I promise you I'd never let you go.
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Leave Out All The Rest..
Expected.
It all ended.
My suffering, first time caring, treating a girl with all my best.
Trying to build a great relationship, maintain it and make sure everything go smooth.
Things were right at first, but relationships are a bumpy roads filled with ups and downs.
Though, I had never regretted anything. Doing all my best for a girl. I just hope the memories stayed with her. Thanks for the memories.
Cookies.
Walking out of school.
Sweet texts.
Morning Calls.
Chocolates.
All the Baka-calling names.
Thanks for the memories.. (X
But there's something wrong somehow, the ending was just too brief.
Argh.. My hands are still aching from the aftermath of the paint job. Due to my undesirably short height, the corners of the ceiling-sidewall boundary had caused me to go on full stretch. Meanwhile, also had to keep the balance as I stood on a chair on a table lolx.
It's great to see people coming to class and help. And some of them (including me) :P Bluek, stayed on to abt 4+ to paint the walls. Seriously, Dedication man. All of us scraped and painted and scraped again. Screw. Other class had finished way ahead of us and we were still busying trying to get the old paint off.
Well at least all the hard work paid off eh. XD
Then, after all the work, we had a little usual SamSiTalk, which ended up quite furious.. and curses.. and
What I felt the most, Guilt.
I couldn't believe my ears when I heard those words. I didn't know that I once caused this trouble, so along with the Epc's. I really need to apologize, seriously, if it hadn't been that day I wouldn't know what had actually happened.
As time passes, we see true colours.
As time passes, we know that
Who's right, who's wrong;
Who's changed and who's not;
Who's evil and who's pure;
You may mask over the face; but you can't throw away what you have done; and what people see in you.
It all ended.
My suffering, first time caring, treating a girl with all my best.
Trying to build a great relationship, maintain it and make sure everything go smooth.
Things were right at first, but relationships are a bumpy roads filled with ups and downs.
Though, I had never regretted anything. Doing all my best for a girl. I just hope the memories stayed with her. Thanks for the memories.
Cookies.
Walking out of school.
Sweet texts.
Morning Calls.
Chocolates.
All the Baka-calling names.
Thanks for the memories.. (X
But there's something wrong somehow, the ending was just too brief.
Argh.. My hands are still aching from the aftermath of the paint job. Due to my undesirably short height, the corners of the ceiling-sidewall boundary had caused me to go on full stretch. Meanwhile, also had to keep the balance as I stood on a chair on a table lolx.
It's great to see people coming to class and help. And some of them (including me) :P Bluek, stayed on to abt 4+ to paint the walls. Seriously, Dedication man. All of us scraped and painted and scraped again. Screw. Other class had finished way ahead of us and we were still busying trying to get the old paint off.
Well at least all the hard work paid off eh. XD
Then, after all the work, we had a little usual SamSiTalk, which ended up quite furious.. and curses.. and
What I felt the most, Guilt.
I couldn't believe my ears when I heard those words. I didn't know that I once caused this trouble, so along with the Epc's. I really need to apologize, seriously, if it hadn't been that day I wouldn't know what had actually happened.
As time passes, we see true colours.
As time passes, we know that
Who's right, who's wrong;
Who's changed and who's not;
Who's evil and who's pure;
You may mask over the face; but you can't throw away what you have done; and what people see in you.
Thursday, March 8, 2012
我不知道。。
哎。。 真的不知道我做错了什么？
为何换来的是你的敷衍。。 我到底是说错了。。做错了什么东东。。
哎。。
每当看见之前的回忆。。 不禁感叹。。
感觉已不在了吗？
不，我还想挽回。。 希望不会太迟。。
我正的很怀念。。
为何换来的是你的敷衍。。 我到底是说错了。。做错了什么东东。。
哎。。
每当看见之前的回忆。。 不禁感叹。。
感觉已不在了吗？
不，我还想挽回。。 希望不会太迟。。
我正的很怀念。。
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Mind Blown.
I'm officially Mind Blown. (:
Given up hope on this exam man. Good shit. The teacher really did a superb job for arranging such.. discouraging schedule. Dafuq? First Add Maths, then Bio, then Sejarah. Sigh.. Pretty screwed up for me. Caused me to lose all my motivation d.. what to do.. screw lah.
Currently lying on my bed.. Hugging the Piggy I brought to Pangkor.. Yeah since my girl hugged it during the trip, It is safe in my arms every night.. Hahaha.
Actually I had no idea why I'd like to collect piggies all the time. Since like I had this habit since I was in.. Form 1 or 2 maybe? The main reason collecting all these piggy products is that.. I am born in the year of Pig.. yeah zodiac. Well, I know it's a stupid and immature reason but yeah.. I'm also naturally attracted to cute stuff.. so I see something nice and worthy, I just grab it off the rack.
Some of the friends think that, walaoeh, Jayden you dam gay weih. Especially Hsien Loong, obviously in a joking manner lah. But then the kawaii-ness of the products seriously dam :D lo, well and definitely cash-sapping.
Sigh.. back to reality..
In the midst of exams..
Gonna revise chinese again later on.. for now. Sejarah yo.
Given up hope on this exam man. Good shit. The teacher really did a superb job for arranging such.. discouraging schedule. Dafuq? First Add Maths, then Bio, then Sejarah. Sigh.. Pretty screwed up for me. Caused me to lose all my motivation d.. what to do.. screw lah.
Currently lying on my bed.. Hugging the Piggy I brought to Pangkor.. Yeah since my girl hugged it during the trip, It is safe in my arms every night.. Hahaha.
Actually I had no idea why I'd like to collect piggies all the time. Since like I had this habit since I was in.. Form 1 or 2 maybe? The main reason collecting all these piggy products is that.. I am born in the year of Pig.. yeah zodiac. Well, I know it's a stupid and immature reason but yeah.. I'm also naturally attracted to cute stuff.. so I see something nice and worthy, I just grab it off the rack.
Some of the friends think that, walaoeh, Jayden you dam gay weih. Especially Hsien Loong, obviously in a joking manner lah. But then the kawaii-ness of the products seriously dam :D lo, well and definitely cash-sapping.
Sigh.. back to reality..
In the midst of exams..
Gonna revise chinese again later on.. for now. Sejarah yo.
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