Did you?

Woah.. 

Today was the day of my performance for a classical piece call Gran Vals. It was previously used for the 2007-2011 year exam if I'm not mistaken. It was a challenging song, and one that I could hardly handle. And I managed to got past it. Though, my teacher still harps me on the mistakes I made here and there.

He's my teacher after all. :)

See. This group of people is assembled by today. Only 3 of us turned up for a sudden call to perform the day before. 29th. After I registered in HELP for my future studies, I went on to my teacher's guitar shop to meet the drummer and the guitarist which later I know them by the name Timothy and Kim Yeon Wan. Yesh, a korean. A cute kid, and a pure heavy drummer which are both one year younger than me. Great. Now we got 2 guitarists and an absent vocal, with no bass. What now?

So after I reached there, I was quickly briefed by Jack, our guitar teacher, the songs we would be playing.

Greenday - Holiday (Ended up as Deep Purple- Smoke On The Water)

Paramore- Renegade

So there, we started practice.

Kim taught me the riffs and what should I play during the concert and I was guiding them through the rhythm and progression of songs. Tim there was just drumming away. Then, we have a little talk about each other, getting know each others personality and dig in about our vocalist from Kim. Joked with a little. According to him, the vocalist is good and true that, on the day of the performance, during the rehearsal, I was simply amazed at her voice. Oh our vocalist's name is Kareshma.

Well, we didn't have a bassist until Jack decided to call one of his students to help out. His name is Mok Tsui Sean. We decided to call him Mok anyways. So his bass line was pretty sick, but earlier on our rehearsal, he hit the wrong notes. So we revamped it later on.

So basically our full members gathered on the day of performance. We got to know each other quick and everyone fitted in quickly. Really out of my expectation. Somehow, I could build a connection with Kim. Our drummer and bassist fits in quite well too.

We were up for the intro performance, they call it "start with a bang". So, I ushered everyone out and got ready. After reading the signals, I started with the famous rock riff by Deep Purple which goes "Dat Dat Dat.. Dat Dat Dattt Dat..." and everybody started clapping their hands along the rhythm. Wow the feeling was incredible man. After 2 bars, Kim started playing and both the sounds of our guitar entwined in the melody. Slowly, the next 2 bars, Tim started smashing on the hi hats and Mok came in with a groovy bass line, which personally got me fired up as the bass line was simply sick man! 

And then, there goes Karishma. "We all came down to Montreal.."

Wow, at that moment, I looked at Kim on the opposite side of the stage, we both smiled. Before the performance, we tend to mess up our riffs but this time we got it right.

So, everything was okay until the solo part. The day before, Kim told me that he didn't know the whole solo for Smoke On The Water. So I had to think of something to switch in for him. So, I spent the last night composing a self improvised solo to fit in. And God, today our solos fit in near-perfection and we managed to finish the song at last with a bang. Wow man.. wahaha

Everyone came into the room smiling and couldn't wait for our next performance. Renegade.

In between that, I had my classical piece. I can't even look up at the crowd as I struggled badly to hit the notes at perfect pitch. My hands are not durable and using pure strength to hold barre chords at perfect tuning and do stretches up to four to five frets, its really killing me. Not to mention that I had to repeat parts of the song. After I ended, I thought I did okay, with mistakes here and there. But my teacher didn't seem satisfied as he told me there were mistakes here and there. 

It's a grade 8 song man, I haven't even pass my grade 8 yet. Get real.

Then my brother performed 3 songs, Gangnam Style, River Flows In You and Haru Haru on acoustic guitar. I mean, he always used these 3 songs to show people how good he is. And he uses this 3 songs to kao lui. It is pretty successful as he plays these 3 songs to pure perfection. However, that's the only thing he can do, to copy but unable to improvise. Nothing out of the box. 

I ask for pure speed and improvisation. He ask for Pop and Acoustic and Mainstream. 

So, when two of us argue, there's always be a big mess.

Well, for the song Paramore-Renegade. You should listen if you haven't listen to it before. It's a rock song, and a pretty nice one. I didn't know it only until Kim introduced it to me. Now it became my addict.

And whoops, we actually messed up the beats for Renegade and I dropped my pick halfway haha. Epic fail for me ><

Well, after we got back home, we actually added each other into a group conversation. And we were discussing about jamming again. Hahaha.. What a life. Didn't expect this band thing to turn out successful and so fun. :) 

Oh yeah, btw our band name is called Sushi. Thanks to Tim. I actually wanted to call it KimChi since Kim is a korean. But everybody just laughed off the idea. Hahaha..

Well great fun knowing these guys.

Our instantly assembled band:

Vocalist : Kareshma

Guitar 1 : Kim Yeon Wan (Kim)

Guitar 2: Jayden

Bass Guitar: Mok Tsui Sean (Mok)

Drummer: Timothy Wong (Tim)

Though, that doesn't mean I gave up on my buddies here. Still waiting for the chance to Seize The Day.. :)

Wishful Thinking..

Wishing all the members of my Ehstrians family a fun and enjoyable trip to Melaka.
It's the last time everyone gather together liddat and go for a trip so hopefully everyone will cherish the time being together.

Meanwhile, I will be facing my Undang test tomorrow. Haha, nervous nervous.. ><

Even more nervous than SPM leh.. Aiyo.

And I'm currently addicted to this game. It's awesome. :D A PS2 game btw. Can't afford a PS3. =3=

Well, few more days left to my first ever guitar performance. I'm the oldest among the performers, I think. But then I am gonna perform a Grade 8 song, so it kinda balance it out. Apparently, I still haven't master the particular song, and it kinda tortures your arm muscle. Mine are completely numb every time I finished playing that song. Its called Gran Vals btw by Francesco Tarrega if I'm not wrong. Hopefully able to clean up the bits of mistakes in my songs. (:

I want to see my friends again, although not this time, reunion is certain. Although, it might just  be wishful thinking..

Christmas with my brother.. (:

Shortly after I returned from the China Trip.. my parents and my sis set off for another trip to China and these time.. without us troublemakers. 

So, for the past 2 days, its just me and my  brother at home.. in game mode for the whole day. I took control of the TV as I tried to complete my newly-bought RPG adventure game. (Played 10 hours today) While my bro just dota-ed the whole day through.

So, that's about it. As lifeless as we can be, its sad that we aren't able to celebrate Christmas with our family. However, we still have two of us. So everything is fine, except now our house are full of vulgars and curses.

Ever since we were both left at home, we shifted our laptops to the living room.

And yeah we dota-ed there.. so curses are flying every where in the house. Not a great taste for the innocent ears. Haha..

Well, gonna take the undang test this Thursday. Hopefully I don't fail.. 

Oh, can't wait to be back on the court now the pain of my knee has subsided.. (:

Peace of Mind.. Is just what I need..

Wings.. take me higher..

It was about 8 days that I took myself off the social media network Facebook, and I find myself reverting back to the past. Those carefree days that my life didn't have to rely on these websites to keep me up to date.

It all started with a 3 day V-camp trip, followed by an imidiate Guilin trip in China. What a sick schedule, nonetheless tiring.

Gah, the V-camp trip is not only fun, but beneficial in some ways. Especially, I got to spend time with my second family of my highschool. The GAY clan, or group. Apart from my classmates, it was with this group of people I enjoyed my time the most. Our friendships never broke although we split classes eventually in Form 4. Though that, every recess, we shared the same table, talk endless topic and never failed to put a smile right up to each others faces.

During this 3 day trip, I shared the same room with Yim, Mun Chun and Wen Yaw. The room was utter chaos man. What happened inside the room was, everybody was walking around in their underwear when no one else other than 4 of us were in the room. Also, they persisted on switching the air conditioner at 16 degree and froze all of us into ice cubes, despite shielding ourselves with the blanket. It was a dam gayish night. We only had a single bed and a queen size bed. Ended up 3 of us had to gay on the queen size.

I slept on the most corner of the Queen size bed. On the first night, when everyone was partying, I couldn't take it and fell asleep first. On the next morning, I slowly woke up and to my surprise, I saw Yim facing me, asleep. Shock dao. Gay dao..

Lost World of Tambun was a great spot for relaxation. First day, all of us guys went for the hot spa. Then, those crazy buffoons came up with the idea and kai bao everybody underwater, leaving them with only underwear on. The first victim was Khai Seong.. followed by Looloo and of course our beloved Dragon Chew. Haha. Everybody gave signals to each other and just gang raped our victim. Haha.

The second day was the six mile tunnel, which was nothing much.. but just continuous walking for the whole morning, enjoying the darkness and the sight of bats hovering at the ceiling of the cave. Had to deal with the varying water levels while maneuvering the narrow path in the cave. When we reached the other side, Jun Haw and I had to search for trees away from the group to answer the nature call. Well, Lian Jiet actually just did it on the spot.. in the river. Lmao man.. HAHAHA..

The 2nd night was nothing much really, just some games and buffet and lucky draw.. which I got a Mashimaro plushie with pineapple cap? Haha.. if that makes sense to you.

Third day was all about theme park.. , continuously sat the Pirate Ship twice. Our gang almost took the whole ship. They were really brave weih.. I see them when the ship was at its peak, they just stood up and let themselves free fall. The feeling was like fucking orgasm man. I tried it but seriously its scary. Later on, its all about water parks slides.. and Petting Zoo? Lol?

Hahaha.. Seriously can't have enough fun with these bunch of people which I call family. :)

Its my last trip with my schoolmates..

Too bad lah, can't make it to the Class Trip.

Ehstrians.. Remember have fun yo.. and take more pics ;)

I will be looking on the same moon as you guys.

Deep inside I'm crying..

I don't think there will be a Part 2 for every other posts that says Part 1. My 'feel' and 'touch' to write varies every time and I can't stay consistent on one topic.

Deep inside I'm crying,
Even though I just came back from the Promenade, I just realized it might be the last time seeing my friends this year. I hope I can keep in touch with all of them, but as always, the connection might be stable over the first few years, some connection might be partially then completely cut off. For this is the end of wonderful highschool life with my classmates, known as Ehstrians. We had gone through thick and thin these years, happiness and sorrow. Our spirit as a class has never dampened through these 2 years, although there was some controversy in the past, which we quickly forgotten. Some painful memories gone through us, but it can only bond us closer. This our spirit. Ehstrian's spirit.

People may say other classes are fun. But to me, S3 is more than a class. It's like a family. Ohana means family. Family means that no one is left behind.

This is the end of a wonderful year with my classmates. I'm glad and blessed to be able to mix with every single part of my class and treasure such great friendships. I got my first sleepover in Mei Xin's house. My first dancing performance with Au Yong, PH and the rest of the gang during teacher's day. Rushing for PJPK every PJPK period.

This is what I want to do, such carefree life. Just go to school, tuition, homework, play. That's it. Life seems much more simple in highschool. Probably the only regret for me is to not join the basketball society. The end of the year signifies a beginning of a new life, a new chapter of studying. I'm going to HELP college, and definitely going to meet new friends, put in extra effort in making new friends, and MAYBE, have a connection with someone special. :P But never know, never can I be so sure it will be as smooth as I think.

A new challenge is going to arrive soon. Several chapters of life are going to be added to my thick sketchbook. The sketchbook already filled with bits and parts of memories of my Ehstrians friends.

The sketchbook of life and memories.




Welcome to my alter-ego, the emotional side of me.

Suffering..

Agh.. why must this calamity come now..?

Just the day before Prom Night I found myself lying in bed, in pain, suffering from fever and bacteria infection  at my ass man. I can barely move or worse, sit up straight.

Now, that I had taken a 12 hour sleep, hopefully God will bless me with a speedy recovery or.

I will be seriously in doubt for attending the Promenade tonight.

Trust.. Part 1

Trust can mean anything..

Trust can mean, the trust between friends, between soul mates, but for now the only thing I feel is the trust between my parents and I.


Monday, right after Bio paper, I went on to Mei Xin's house for a so-called BBQ party. Few of us took the taxi back her house, and few of us decided to take the bus. To say it all, it wasn't pleasant taking the bus. We (Bryan, Tien Sern, Me, Chai Hoong, Angel, Song Zhe, Weng Hei) got lost and had to turn back. Just then, we caught a lucky rainstorm.

The rainstorm definitely struck us hard. We were all wet after walking just halfway to her house. A kind bus driver drove us to a bus stop nearest to her house, and that was as far as he could go. Then we had to walk our way to her house. Sadly, we got the wrong direction and headed down the wrong path, with raindrops falling down from the sky like tears and it only took a while for us to be drenched in rainwater. We tried to run but the weight of soaked uniform slowed us down. We were walking opposite the direction of rain the whole time, and the accumulation of rainwater flowing from uphill kept pushing us down the slope.

It was only some time we had managed to go through this hardship and fought our way to Mei Xin's house. Rawr. XD

The first thing I did was to rush into the washroom for a quick shower before getting sick. Then the karaoke party started. When everyone pretty much arrived, the bbq party officially started and everybody got fired up and started cooking. The boys also played monkey ball, which was tiring. :P Not to mention, the pop champagne session and sharing the pink potion around. Haha.

I was simply attracted to Mei Xin's Dog, Lucky. I had no idea what breed is it, even Mei Xin the owner don't have an idea about it too. Lol. Lucky had blackish fur, and big round, INNOCENT eyes. At my first sight, it stared straight into my eyes, seemingly communicating with me. Well, I love him haha. And Gawd, I saw the priceless look on Chee Seng's face when she heard Mei Xin calling her dog, Jayden. Hahaha, he was like wtf man.

Well, Lucky's is officially Jayden #2 haha. Just like Kuroko's Tetsuya #2.

As Lii Xiang said, the night is still young.

I suddenly got the news of staying overnight. And so I did.

God..

Please God,

I don't know why my dad fell sick all of a sudden..

but please give my dad a speedy recover from his sickness..

I am not alone, I have my brotherhood.

To those who don't know, I have a big brotherhood. This group is very special to me.. knowing when to have fun, knowing when to comfort, talking straight foward, zat straight forward, never reluctant to teach each other skills in games, bring up stories of their trips, lives or experience.

This is what I call true brother. Those who know how to criticize, those who know when to have fun, and when to keep yourself in check. When to hold their words, when to give ideas.

Fortunately for me, I have a lot of brothers, those that can share a conversation with and those that help me through high seas and deep hell.

However, this special group is able to take it to another level. The experience we share throughout the year never stops. From them, I learnt a lot, and gain numerous knowledge in various field. It's fun listening them to talk as they speak with their mind, and never fail to motivate someone. Although all of us eventually hopped on to different classes, we still share the same relationship between each other.

After my last SPM Paper, Biology, I along with the whole bunch went to our so-called leader's house, Dragon. 7 of us fitted in the tiny little Myvi on our back home, which was a bit.. Yeah. As soon as we reached his house, we got on to a movie -- a movie related to the Chinese History which all of them spoke the ancient language.

Later on, we planned to play some basketball, but seeing there were people already there, we had to go on to play something else. Hmm, and we came up with something stupid.. nevertheless had lots of fun.

Rain soon fell and lightning struck.. we had to crawl back into the shelter. That was when Yi Zen started dominating the piano, spamming deafening themes of songs ranging from different genres while the rest of us sat around and had some nutmeg juice. :)

It was onto sometime around 7.30 that we had got the chance to have dinner since lunch in Murni, a mamak restaurant. It was a surprised to me that, the prices of the food costed cheap as compared to its per serving/portion. We called about 11 dishes of food man, consisting of Naan, Cabonara, Omelette, Chicken Chop, Nasi Lemak and Roti Special. About 2 dishes of each kind. Also, we ordered some drinks with some special name and I swear its called I love you, I miss you, I kiss you and Pink Panther. Lol. After so much dinner, the total amount of the whole dinner was only Rm140!

Later, they all came to my house and that's when all hell broke loose. They all started rolling on my bed, playing with my guitar, dota, throw my plushies around. Eventually, we got too noisy and I shifted everything up to the highest floor. Guess what, everything is still god damn loud. Everything calmed a little when I tried to lower the volume of everyone. The activities at night gone on pretty smoothly and fun packed.

We played Poker, Jammed on Seize The Day with Looloo and Me on the acoustic and electric guitars, played Jay Chou's songs through the amp the whole night. Chatted a lot, criticized a lot. It was a memorable night. I laughed the whole night through, it was hilarious. Everyone there had a touch of humour in their talk and none of the conversation was stoppable.

Hmm, let me update you about the people staying overnight.

Initially there was 2, which I actually limited it myself with Yi Zen and Lian Jiet only. However, plans had changed drastically and everyone present there ended up staying overnight.

Me, Yi Zen, Hsien Loong, Lian Jiet, Theng Hoong, Mun Chun, Loo Loo

7 man one room. End up the noise had exceeded way past its limits. :P

After 3, all of us starting to fall asleep one by one,

with Mun Chun heading to back first followed by Yi Zen and I. 3 of us slept in the same room. Then, Hsien Loong and Loo Loo went to sleep in the other room. AT 4, TWO GAYS FINALLY DECIDED TO GO TO SLEEP.

This is what happened,

both rooms have queen sized beds available for 2.
Each bed can fit 2 ppl.
What happened was Yi Zen slept and took over the whole bed of our room.

Ended up, 3 of the other man actually slept together on the same bed in the same room with no Air Cond on. (Dragon offed it because its too closed). Gay.


I had a deep sleep.. its been a long time sleeping under the air cond. I woke up at the sound of dragon.

It was 9 a.m. Gawd not even 7 hours of sleep.

There I go, waking up blurry eyes and saw Yi Zen and Mun Chun already awaken. Immediately I got up and went next door to check on the rest and found some of them snoring. Haha.. what a great way to start the day.

So well we joked around for the whole morning pretty much. After eating my mother's breakfast, we went on to One U for a movie and later.. back home.


This is the first time letting people overnight in my house. I'm glad that everyone had a field day.. especially all of us being able to gel together well and laugh along the same line. There was nothing breaking the flow of night. On the other hand, I also learnt how to play poker.. Wahaha, and was able to win some by luck. :P


This is what I call brotherhood. This is what I call having fun together.

Looking forward to the V-Camp.

Because..

It's those little things that matters the most.. :(:

Because..

That smile..

Is just what I wanted to see..



Back to some revision..

When I'm Gone..

But what happens when karma turns right around and bite you?
And everything you stand for turns on you to spite you?

-When I'm Gone lyrics

I think its the best song I've heard from Eminem. A sad soul inside a rapper's body.


I'm mentally stressed out these days, partly with my online game and the exam. I didn't take any naps at all coming back from school every evening. There's no time anyways.. I do not like taking naps at 4p.m coming back from school. It's shitty man.. I don't like waking up at night.. and have to stay awake for a couple hours before falling into my rapid-eye-movement sleep.

Mentally stressed out, physically I'm down too, having no time to do sports nowadays. But if I do get the chance, it's going down HARD. Loving the intensity of competition heh. Well, the main reason of not doing any sports is because I do not want to injure myself.. Especially my fingers and also my already-injured left knee. It's the 3rd year getting along with the occasionally-dislocated-left knee. Dislocation sounds painful right. Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu dipikul. The feeling is hell, its like a time bomb- can happy anywhere, any time and any slight movement will trigger it. The worst part is you had to relocate it back again by stretching ur leg straight and wait for the ligaments to pull and click the bones together.

It hinders my movement. My vertical jumps are limited. Any two foot action sport can possibly catch my knee by accident. and I think, it would be impossible to fix it back..



SPM Papers are breezing past me like wind, true enough, neither do I feel the anxiety or the stress coming my way. Everything, just storm pass me and neither did I persevere in any of them. Just took things my way, the light way. This attitude of facing exam sure is relax, but can be costly. Well, its just SPM.. that's what I thought.. it could never be any harder than our school..

True enough, its near impossible to compare the standards of SPM to our CHS.. it is a definite striking contrast.


Recently, I keep dreaming..
And somehow, I realized the it was a dream when I was in my dream..
However, I couldn't really control my movement.. but could hear what was I saying in the conversations between me and my dream..
It was something like an RPG game... but mostly I dreamed of my friends around me.

Sometimes, it was a terrible nightmare, as I dreamed of pretty unpleasant things..
Sometimes, it was something shocking yet.. too good to be true.

Everything seemed so good.. but in the end, I woke up and everything was a dream, non-existing yet so real.


Sometimes, you get the feeling you regretted waking up..as

It might be the last time that,

everything went perfectly right.




And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back.

So smile more yo.. :)

Dear Agony..

Yes, lately, I keep craving for songs from Breaking Benjamin's Dear Agony album. It's pretty heavy alright, but heavy with emotion.. with sadness.


Okay, let's go on.

Today, I have the sudden urge to update my blog, though, I had no idea wad should I really type about. Well, I shall go on with a summary with what I did.. today.

So, this evening, I went for a movie in 1U with my family and couz -- Skyfall. It's a pretty thrilling movie. Very unexpected events. Though, the starting was like an ending. It started with a fight, and agent 007 got shot and dived into the water. Then, the next 5 minutes, I ended up watching the credits and hearing the Skyfall theme.. -_-.. which almost made me fell asleep. The rest of the movie was awesome though. Cool gadgets, Traps everywhere. Sick. It's a must watch. :)


Sky.. why you keep crying? :(

It's not weird that the sky's raining so frequently this period.. However, the change was definitely drastic. It could be sunny for a while, and a heavy downpour follow after. Every day, I lie deadly on my bed, holding my reference book high up in the air, browsing through the pages, I could always hear sudden deafening thunder roaring. And all of a sudden, boom, the electricity was all gone and I ended up in the dark.

The dark.. Not a friendly place for me.. Hahaha.

The dark always brought memories back to my Form 2 Prefect Camp. We were suppose to track up a super slope hill, and I still remembered I missed grabbing the guiding rope and almost slip and fell off the steep path. Luckily, Gan (Wei Jian)caught my hand and I did not tumble down the slope. LOL

Pretty weird that my blur nature haven't change till now. Bad Sign. Sigh Sigh..

Apart from studying and waiting for SPM to end in coming weeks, I had figure out a plan for post SPM. Well, the plan shall be revealed soon bah, since there's one more holiday for me to plan out my routine. :p

Wahaha..

Actually feel quite good lately.. XD

End here bah.. :)

Graduation.. PART 1

I graduated..

I should be happy, I should be excited knowing that the much-hyped college life is within reach.

However, It turned out to be opposite.

The truth is, I don't wanna leave the school. I can't imagine life without uniforms. Life without Principal's speech every monday morning. Life without meetings. Life without Prefect Camps. Life without Prefectorial Board. Life without the GAY clan. Life without basketballing in the indoor Sports Centre. Life without HnG room.

Especially these 2 years, Life without Ehstrians.



I am sad, if not depressed. Although my face don't show any expression, it doesn't mean my heart inside was tough. I was terribly weeping inside. These 2 years the memories had been deeply engraved in my mind, burnt into my soul, stuck to me like a tattoo. These 2 years, had been I life changing one for me, and my classmates taught me a lot, a lot.. brought me painful, stinging experience and also those that could light a smile on my face whenever I thought of it before I got to bed.

Its fairly impossible to think that when I first saw the list of my Form 4 class, I was in the verge of throwing vulgars at my friends, complaining that none of them were in my class and how fucked up am I to be allocated into such a class with a bunch of not known people. I thought I was doomed to be in 4s3, a mistake, those who I thought was 'fun' people was sent to different classes, classes which differ from mine. That moment, I thought I was alone.


However, my opinions towards this class turned out wrong. Wrong at the right way.

It turned out to be a class, not awesome, but a class where you can see true friendships, and people who were desperate to pull the class together and got everyone involve. People who tried to bring the unsociable to contribute their part in our 5s3 family.

My seating in the class was fixed by Yeo Chun Huay, also called John. The day before school opening, I was asked by him to sit together. At first, I doubted him.. I thought it would be boring to sit with a guy who sticks to girls all the time. I wanted to sit with Mun Chun at first to be honest, but he rejected me by saying he would be sitting with a lenglui who turned out to be Yi Lin at last.

Fine.

By the start of first day of 4s3, I made my way to Zhong Yih and bear hugged him. He didn't look surprise though.. I guess he researched about me before haha. Zhong Yih gave me a lot of stress, being the other Prefect who had the potential to produce brilliant results and overshadow my presence in class. And through enough, result-wise I definitely got overshadowed lol.

In class I sat somewhere near the exit.. (SERIOUSLY GOOD CHOICE OF SEATING MAN).. and I was silent the whole way and John decided to start the conversation. Ended up with us talking music and he complaint that I didn't know any pop and only know Japanese music. And that time I realized someone was eavesdropping on us and turned.. and it was none-other then Kit Yan. Well I got off John then and started talking to her.. :p Beside Kit Yan was Lii Xiang, the quite famous girl which I heard her name coiple of times but didn't see her before.. and I finally did. :)

Friendship with Alvin and Xin Ying started off by fixing Xin Ying's little teddy key chain which had a broken arm. Me and Alvin did her a favour by fixing it back and our friendship had started ever since. Xiao Qi became my lil sis not long after, which I didnt know how we know each other.

Yim, Yung Ming Timothy got our first laugh during Michael's running practice, which Yim completely made fun of Timothy's running form with Me and Yung Ming laughing our assess off beside. Talking about Sports, my friendship with the gang started out no other than basketball. There's a lot of floor generals in basketball, Chee Seng, Phang Hoong, Zhi Sheng, all three played for the same school since primary definitely showed their potential on the court.

Also, there's also a girl which I always called nicknames like.. 'PEI GUN' and KHOO.. which was funny and thank god they didn't hate me for calling them names. Eventually, Khoo called me NG all the time and we both ended up laughing. These 2 have their very own BFF.. Pei Jean was partnered with the Soap Lady Xing Yi, and Mei Xin was partnered up with Sue Ann, the one with low laughing point and her face gets red hot really easily weih XD.

During exam, I have Esther sitting behind me, who was a very cautious person in my view. She was darn scard to lend me anything at the risk of being caught. Come on its just roller wat. XD In class sitting beside Esther was Mein Teng, one of the great artists in class. Oh yeah, talking about artists, there's Song Zhe, the president of the Creative Club and Wushu Club.. who seemed flawless in his singing too. Along side him was Weng Fai, my cubemaster 2.0. They were a friendly and caring bunch. During my 2 years birthday, they gave me stationaries as gifts as they knew that, I would always be lending things. Bad habit yo. ><

Also, I had Bra, a guy who's proudly gay.. and was one of the warmest guy which I had ever hugged. Despite his criticism, which mostly just joking. He present himself as one of the most caring friend, in my heart.

5S3 came soon after..

There were some friends which I often talked to them in this year..

Hmm.. let's off with Angeline then, who was famous for her Shark name (Shak) and the shark fin soup. Yum. :P Following Shak was our class very own Rainbow and YiLinGen. Hahaha.

Also there's also potential singers and future star like Yin Yin, who's excelled in both singing and studying. She had a great partner beside her, and someone who backed her up in the Idols group singing. They are surely angelic that day :P

This year, I came close with a friend call Tien Sern, who I recently found out had a strong desire to play basketball. After the year end exam, we often skipped our recess to play ball in the Sports Center, with the risk of being caught.

I also had a 'Da Jie' in Li Wen. A girl who always bully me de.. haha. And beside her was Hui Zhi, also known as Birdie, Mr Chan's right hand woman. :) Also, not to be missed out on was our Weng Hei and Sin Che.. who used the word 'Dear' to call their own man.. Zhong Yih and Tien Sern hahaha.

There's another part which form the three man trio, which was Jin Tao, Shan Li and Tek. Those 3 were gamers and their laughter could be heard occasionally in class.Not to mention, Timothy should also the get the 'No Change Place Since The Day I Enter School award'.. also introducing our lead dancer.. Au Yong and one of the most underseen guy Jia Wei.

Last but no least its the 2 important person who accompanied me from day one. Isabel also called Bel, had been my exam mate sitting in front of me and one of my best and sincere friends throughout the years. Eng Ngee, my calculator, sitting 2 seats behind of me, was one of my good friends, who was also pure in mind. :P

...

For those of who know me fairly well,

I'm those people who likes to complain about how unfair the world is, and can't take seeing people suffering from unfairness..

Even seeing someone being attack, no matter verbally or physically, I always have the urge to step up and fight for their rights.

And just now, I exploded again, towards my family members.


Fuck it.

I had no idea what ran through my brain.

Taller than me.. so what? Can you elevate higher than me?

12am..

It's almost been a week now since PMR started.. Glad to see that my sister's doing fine .. as expected. Her diligence and perseverance definitely gonna benefit her in the exams, considering the fact its easy to strike a streak of brilliant results in this non-challenging exam.

Well, the only challenging part are the languages only I guess.

Come to think of it, the ongoing of the PMR exams is signalling that the exam I'm gonna face is coming not long after. Not months, but just weeks after. The fact that I'm sitting here all relaxed and chilled shows that I'm obviously not prepared at all. Lol. I think this will be the same as other times, waiting for the eleventh hour to push myself all the way. It's been a bad habit since maybe Form 2 which I started studying midnight. Before Form 2, there's just no studying at all. :)


Remember I broke my specs and gone partially blind the whole time during Yung Ming's party?.. Yeah I came out with a 3-spec rotation after that. I made a new pair of specs for studying purposes which is white in colour. Well, the optician actually convinced me to choose white instead of my typical silvery outlook. "Wear white when you still have a chance, grow older then you will miss it.." True enough, my mom tested it.. and chaos happened.

Who knew that Contact Lens could be such a disappointment. I was well with hope that contact lens can cut me some slack and it turned out to be a lot of hard work by just learning how to wear it. Gawd.

Calamity did fell upon me when there was once, it was causing me great pain after putting in the lens. Shit. And the problem was I could not take it out no matter how hard I tried. Eventually, I got fucking worried and was panicking. Then I realized Chia Min (Biology tuition-mate) was whatsapp-ing me.. and ended up asking for help. I was sending a lot of crappy panicking sentences to her.. short and filled with fear. All she replied was CHILL, CALM DOWN, PINCH UR LENS OUT. and all I said was ITS NOT COMING OUT DAM IT..

Well the whole situation lasted for 30 minutes when I somehow managed to scratch it out I think. Ended up my eye got red and pain. Ended up doubting myself whether was I cut out for the lenses ot not. Sigh..


Nothing much to worry not, except exams coming..

Hopefully can get back to school as quick as possible, I'm growing mushrooms at home.. Agh..

Bullet through my head..

Just came back from Yung Ming's Post Exam BBQ party. Gladly, everything was a success. Despite the fact that my specs broke just at the start of the party, everything went on just fine. In fact, I managed to hold the broke piece of it together by using tape. It was definitely a field day to me, to be able to party with almost all the classmates, joking, laughing, shouting. Every moment we shared was ineffable and not to mention, incredible.

I was the first one to reach his house in the morning, at around 10.45 a.m. I went out with my dad who was heading for work, so it was easy for him to just drop me off at the place. So, there I was in Mah's house, chatting and also playing with his dog, Doggie. The dog is energetic and also adorable and doesn't bite. Every time, playing with other dogs made me think of my scar on my thumb which was scarred by no other my dog.

Basketball was fun and energy-sapping. Had to chase for the ball all the time, make a couple of block shots and some assist. I didn't play up to my standard today, sadly, kept making dribbling mistakes. Maybe, still hadn't got through the post-exam syndrome ba. Seeing friends on court going all out, I was relieved. That's the way people should play basketball. Love the intensity of the game.

Anyways up to results update. I didn't get what I had expected.. however everything turned out great due to the fact that I didn't really studied for my mid term. Well, hopefully I can do well for my SPM ba.. Gambateh. :D

School decided to come out with a Chinese Intensive Class. Just like I said before, I couldn't wait to graduate from this school. Thinking of school decided not to help the weaker ones in the Chinese Language. Wad the Fux is school thinking at this moment. Trying to make the best one better to cover the weaker ones? Trying to raise reputation in school? I mean, everybody should have the same treatment, no matter you're good or bad in academic. The school should be sagacious, and put emphasis on the students authority. This is why we chose to study in this school. To get good quality education to improve ourselves.

Fair education. I didn't deserve it? Maybe they think those who couldn't reach their expectations were hopeless. Nothing could help them anymore and not a single fux was given whether had they passed or not..

Sigh. What happened to our beloved school.

Well Pei Jean if you're ever reading this blog. Happy Belated Birthday! :D


Last but not least,

Rip Specs, gotta make a pair of new ones 2moro. :)

What more can I say..?

It might looked like a typical day for you guys, but it was a emoish day for me. I did not know what happened to me at all, coming to class all down and tired, energy-sapped being not my usual self. After the BM period, I couldn't hold my feelings anymore and ran to the Prefect Room, and thank God, that's when I saw Chia's Gibson lying on the bench with the room totally empty.

So I jammed, alone, going from songs to songs that I had memorized from the past few years just so that I could lift my spirits up a little. I did a little medley of a few songs and solos and enjoyed my moment in the Prefect room, alone, with the fan and lights off for 30 minutes, with nothing but the sounds of my pick and the melody played through the vibration of strings.

This is what I played..
Pantera-Cowboys from Hell
A7x-Unholy Confessions, Afterlife solo
K-on!!-Utauyo Miracles!
An Cafe-Kakusei Heroism
Naruto-The Raising Fighting Spirit
Jerry C-Canon Rock
Ozzy Osbourne-Crazy Train with R.R solo

It was a rockish moment for me as I stomped along the beat as I rammed on the strings with my fingers sliding up and down from the neck like lightning. And at that moment, I noticed someone secretly watching me..

It was John.

"I knew you would be here.." he said.

At least, someone realized that I was gone for the whole morning and cared to find me. Then, he just walked into the prefect room and both of us started our 2-men conversation in the room. Gay.

Not long after, we ponteng-ed PK and went up to the corridor close to the block C mens' washroom.. our usual hiding spot to chat. We hopped onto topics to topics, some which are quite doleful, some jokerful.. haha.. anyways, I'm glad inside that there's someone to accompany me this morning. Thanks John.


I have no idea when did I start to post such posts. I mean, there's no much time left for me to be in my secondary school, not much time to hang around with all my beloved Esthrians, and by the time you know it, we will all be leaving school. After coming back for exams, we won't be seeing each other much d. Maybe for the first few years, we might stay in contact, but slowly we can see people, going overseas to study, migrating, or even just walk past you as if your a shadow..


Anyways, I just want to say something. Recently, our class came a very active member. Someone who would ditch his own class and just come into our class at every fucking minute. I just want to say that, fuck off and get back to your class kay? Its 5S3 for gods sake, and you are entering all the time. Its not like I have a problem with you or what. Its just that, there're people who are annoyed by the fact that outsiders keep entering our class and treating the class like theirs.



Okay, Peace V._.

Hopefully, I can get my guitar soon ah. Rawr..

And had to rush the song.. which I'm gonna perform soon.. @.@

Piling pressure, unbearable stress

The fact that I was in a happy-go-lucky-state-of-mind the past 3 weeks of the exams was not entirely true. It was quite a torture for me, both mentally and physically, with the later one the worse. What made it so torturous was that you could not do anything you want with freedom, the things which you did in between the exam period MUST be related to your exams. The great pressure from teachers and ultimately PARENTS was hard to bear.

It was a crazy week, with so many things happening. I was hoping that exam would come to an end as soon as possible and then I can finally play in peace and free of burden. Exam week? So what? It didn't stop me from playing games, watching television, blasting music so on and so forth. What I don't get was why some students who study study and study for the sake of the exams, getting good results when they didn't enjoy the process of it. It's completely useless to do something when you don't enjoy it.

Maybe because of these kind of mindset, I didn't do well for ALL my examinations. My results were average and I was never the outstanding one when my results were compared with the rest of the prefects in class. It's a fucked up fact that teachers often compare Prefects in class and limit the movement of Prefects in class. We are suppose to be at a slightly higher level then students as we are suppose to guide them. Yes. However, teachers should never ignore the fact that we are not completely saints and angels and can never break rules.

After my resignation as a Prefect, I let go a sigh of relief. Finally, I could get the same treatment as students. I no longer need to put on an act the way I am in class. Most importantly, I'm free of comparisons between me and my fellow prefect classmates.


Here I'm going to rant on a normally seen and heard topic which is the SKIPSCHOOL-TO-STUDY activity that half of the students in the school do. Mostly, those that who are under pressure and is going to evaporate. WHY? I don't get it, does results really mean that much to you? What is the point of isolating yourself at home just to study and get good results when you sacrifice the time being around with friends in the beloved class. I mean, Hey, how much can you study at home with all the distractions around? I say there's no way students can utilize the time spent at home completely to study.

Now that exam is over, I can finally play in peace. My current addiction is no other than Maplestory. And I will definitely get some chance to go the court and shoot some hoops. On Friday after the exam, I stayed back to play basketball with my gang of friends. It was really great to be able to sweat again after a long month of confining myself indoors. After playing for a while, I realized that my athleticism was gone and none of my attempts to score were successful. My movements were rusty and I didn't seem like a threat anymore. I couldn't jump high enough, I couldn't make a jumpshot, I couldn't make sure that my layups can go in.



The aftermath of exam,
Less mental and health abuse,
A more rusty body.

Answering the exam questions, I tend to look around, and there was always something somewhere that could make me smile. :)

Release me..

Hmm..
It feels good to have friends that's still supporting your back..

12th July 2012, 10.18 pm...

One day gone since I came back from the extra-tiring schedule.. The CO2 Car Competition and the HnG music camp. It was quite an incredible experience, having to learn so much from these 2 memorable yet thrilling event.

Talking about the Co2 car, it was quite frustrating and we were down in the dumps right after our first presentation, as we thought, it was pretty unfair to us as the time given was not right. We didn't manage to present finish with the best effort. Not only that, the judges were ridiculous and weren't smart enough to understand the mechanism of our simple 0-budget car.. Screw it.

The racing competition went as expected. Our car did its best and we were very proud of our creation. Although it did not get the maximum points for the Furthest-Distance Run, it got pretty close to the Set-Distance (3m mark) part. For the others teams, Isabel's one did great but it was not enough to compete with the rest. However, Shin Yin's group fall short, and many believed that their luck unfortunately ran out. Also, I reunited with some of my primary schoolmates, who also came for the competition. Their car wasn't that successful, and I was having a good laugh with them there. Their teammates were extremely humerous and joker. For your information, the presentations and racing took about 1/2 our time there. We were in Taylor's for about 8 hours but the actual competition time was only 4.. or maybe less. For the other time, most of the teams used it to prepare and remodify their car to increase its speed, reduce its mass.. or whatever. Unlike them, we, the Coveready, just slacked all along, sleeping, playing games, chatting and also dancing to the Sexy and I Know It.

Yep it was an amazing experience. Rawr.

On the next day of the competition came the camp.. and it was a very heartwarming camp not to mention I got to play on Chia's Gibson Les Paul <3.

It was my first time overnighting in my friend's home and sure my parents didn't like it.

This week was a gloomy week for me.. Especially with the effing ulcers on my mouth. I couldn't speak clearly or even have a glass of water without enduring the intense pain. I couldn't laugh, which I do most of the times. Also, I didn't get to compete in the inter-class basketball competition.. which may be my last basketball competition in school. Haiz.. sometimes I just wish I was better so I can lead my class as a team, but no.. our class lacks of what we call integration. Khai Seong and the s9 team made it into the Finals tomorrow. It will sure gonna be a match that brings pure entertainment and team spirit, with s9's court leader Tat Shing.

Oh well, all the best to them and hopefully my ulcer is gonna recover soon. Gah..

Prom prom prom.. The news of prom was spreading in my class and quickly became the hot topic. My table of classmates had already settled down but the other group hasn't. Though surprisingly, most of them already got partners and still wanna ffk.. LOL.

Gah.. now think about it.. most people already got a partner..

Shall I take a step forward too?

Everyday is a brand new day..

It's time to leave the memories behind and start to move on..


2nd July 2012, 9.55pm..

It's the second day of the last term of my final school year. It's time where we can see people start to pour in effort in their work and studies and stuffs. This is where we can see true friendships that count, people who would lend you a hand when you're down. Sometimes, deep down inside, I feel that I'm like a girl hiding my sadness and disappointments behind smiles and laughter. Only some of them, some maybe like John who can really see that.. I am not alright.

It's been a fucking frustrating year for me. What more.? To be engaged in complicating stuffs.. and now.. I have to deal with the class seating. Why is everyone switching places so frequently that I have no constant place to sit. Seriously, why always me? I don't mind people sitting at my place but please.. at least ask my permission before you make that place YOURS. Look at the class seating please.

You know?

I didn't know who the fuck started this when all of a sudden, I realized that I was not seating with John anymore. My place had been illegally invaded. To top it all, I had become a Nomad since then, moving from places to places. I'm not an early-reacher.. I can't fight for a place to seat early. Most of the times, I had to deal with seating alone, and to tell you honestly, I can't stand being alone. Somehow, I slowly feel that I'm not that significant as an ehstrian, although to say the truth, I love everyone of them.

You know?

You can't fake feelings. No matter how good you are. It was a good day last Saturday playing basketball with Jian Wei and Khai Seong. Talking to them really helped me let go all of my thoughts and focus on my gameplay. To say the truth, I'm a bad basketballer myself.. playing averagely, selfish most of the time, not able to shoot, but alas I believe I'm a contributor to the team. Except during PJPK, which my teammates are normally worse.


Gosh..

Talking about contributing to the team.. I felt guilty for joining the Co2 Team. It's not my kind of thing and I'm dragged into the team to fill up their last man. I don't like it to say the truth. Although I'm assigned with the presentation job, I believe Zhong Yih can alone put up a better show and performance compared to me. So why did they choose me..? I seriously don't understand. Rainbow and Xiang got better quality, better mind set in winning things like these. Why did they pulled out and let me fill the last place.


It sucks being a guy who cares too much,
It just doesn't worth it.

It's fine getting hurt anywhere,
but the heart of a guy.

Peace out.

Remembrance..

It's not the first time I felt anti-social in class..
Sometimes I just don't know where to go and who to talk to..
Sometimes plain emptiness just dawn on me.. confining my mind.

Sigh.. I need someone to talk to, someone to throw my feelings at.
And so I did.

Few months back, there was this special moment I had with Pei Jean.. which was the Keng Sam Si session. Back then, it was kinda cool, as we often cut classes and hid at the corner of the corridor just to share our thoughts and secrets as a form 4 teenager. Since the start of the year, we didn't really talk much anymore. Until the Wednesday before.. I saw her reading a book, a novel which the line was in vertical positioning. The cover mentioned something about.. "Stay happy" kind of stuffs.

"What are you reading?" That was how I started a conversation with her. And we ended up strolling down the memory lane.. and some moment of truth. Then Bra, came in.. and there were more moment of truth. Glad everyone there was able to share it out truthfully.. and sincerely. We all realized that, we matured incredibly fast.. and the past that we shaped had been long forgotten, like piece of unwanted, immature piece of memories. Well maybe I will keep some of them for life though.

You know.. My tuition teacher trashed and rejected my essay with a disgraceful tone in the class. It left me on the verge of tears, knowing that the effort and time and thoughts that I poured into my piece of work belonged in the dumpster. Argh.. now I have to crack my head to mould another piece of work - with the chance of getting the same treatment.



Strong and blur appearance outside..
Weak and focus inside..

How much can you see?

I'd be indifferent..

Not supposed to be online now.. I should really dig a hole and bury myself down in the puddle of mud. My appalling results had cast a spell of disgrace and disappointment on me. I'm okay with that but, hopefully my parents don't find me as a disappointment to them. It's a terrible thing to do, seeing your parents shed tears over what the responsibilities that you had taken as a student and also, as the eldest.

In comparison to me, both my siblings are able to score splendidly in their exams, and they make it look really easy.. like Mario collecting coins. Sigh.. I wonder was it me that who did not put in extra effort, or they had been secretly working hard? Knowing my brother, who is definitely smarter and more cunning than me, is able to pull through exams with his raw talent. His records proved it. My sister, the not so smart one, normally pours in her diligence and perseverance in crafting great results. I admire her for that.

Friends.

Glad to have friends like Dragon and Khai Seong, who accompanied me all the way to summit to purchase a new pair of Basketball Shoes. Amazingly though, Bear also splashed his cash on a pair of shoes himself. The trip took almost the whole day out of us and it ended all the way at Dragon's house. Anyways, Dragon if you ever see this, I just want to say
thanks a lot bro. (:

Adrenalin Mob - Indifferent

"Looking back on my life.."

It's amazing that I'm already a Form 5, waiting to graduate from my secondary/middle school and head towards highschool/college. It feels like in a blink of an eye, everything changed. From what I learn, and what I know, and what I am interested of. And who I care for.

Why am I posting all these stuffs? I don't know. John said that my blog had become an EMO blog. Well, partly the truth lolx.

Anyways,

I've done an As I Lay Dying - Moving forward song and a cover for the intro-verse-chorus for Set The World On Fire by Symphony X. Be sure to check it out. :)


and Boston lost to Miami.. Agh..

Tired.. Fear..

10.48p.m.

It's been a while since I last updated my blog.. Hmm.. it's been exams circling all over my mind for the past weeks so I didn't have time to pour my time into online blogging. I do wonder sometimes whether are there any readers visiting my blog.. or all my efforts and feelings poured here just for my own entertainment and excitement.

Today might be the worse day of my life.. I had no fucking soul or life in me today. I can't feel any enthusiasm in me carrying out activities for the whole day, which is very wrong. It just seems like the world doesn't matter anymore. For the first time these feelings came.. Weird much.

Oh yeah, I have been working on my Shooting lately with Khai Seong. Finally saw some improvements. To go with the training, I actually ripped my basketball shoes. Crap. The base of the shoes had been ripped out and it's not easy to be replaced. How do you actually glue back the sole of the shoes, come on it's basketball man. So, to solve it all, we plan to go seek for a new pair of shoes. Well, there goes my Adidas.

My biggest fear..

I was wondering whether I wrote the wrong story line for my topic. It's the truth anyways, I am afraid of pop-up ghosts and horror stuffs. sigh.

Still Isabel's idea of 'My Biggest Fear is Losing You'.. was pretty impressive. However too bad she didn't write it, or not it would be a great essay based on her caliber. :P

But still who would she be scard of losing..? Apart from her family and relatives. :P


Somehow, I can't get enough rest.. is it because I have been going online too much.?

Nevermind.. as long as I spend time on Astro Tutor TV.. should be able to keep up with my studies.

Oh yeah.. Add maths project.

==

Shh.. XD

1am..

Today's Mother's Day, I'm suppose to wake up at 8 later to help out my siblings in preparing a so-called-surprise-breakfast for my mom. Yeah, we are gonna cook. Well not me maybe, I think I might just stand there and kelefeh or watch out.. and wait to eat later.

Okay, so basically, everybody is tense and pressure with the on-going exams, which is going to last for another two weeks. 3 days had already passed, I did okay I guess. Didn't have time to think so much. Well, for the past couple of months, I started to see how an exam can reflect on one's personality. The used-to-be rampaging class had turned into a grave with dead silence.

Creepy. Yeah.

How unexpected to see people change that much because of the exams. Now, talking to people is becoming more stress. Upon stumbling them.. those not-so-close ones, the opening topic of our conversation wouldn't be 'Hey how's life? (:' anymore. Shocking to see when I met some friends, especially those who are really exam-conscious ones, they would always be the first to say 'Hey you study finish already ah?' or 'Hey, your class got any tips for exams?'.. These two type of conversation starters may as well act as finishers. I'm starting to get annoyed with people like this. Sigh.

Human nature now tells me that once people get stressed of a certain thing they want to accomplish. They can't take things off their mind. Studying is our responsibility, yes. But, what for studying to compete, when the main reason we actually study is to gain knowledge from it.

Xin Ying actually enlightened me with this sentence,
"We study isn't because of gaining good results, but to gain knowledge from it"

And now, I totally agree with it.

Although saying all these shit, I still have to put in effort to get an at least reasonable and satisfying result by this mid-term exams. Don't wanna disappoint my parents.



So anyways, after seeing Paul Gilbert's video lesson, which I learn a lot, my motivation to play in a band has raised by leaps and bounds. Ah, hopefully if there's a chance, I still wanna perform live on stage. But before that day can come, I might have to go pierce a few earholes and tattoo myself with the hope of changing my personal appearance.

But, some things just can't be taken away.

My tui looks.

SAD.

Boredom.

This sucks. Exam's around the corner and I seem to lost focus on everything. Shit. Lord, what good timing is this.. == Seriously, this can deal a great blow to my hard work that I had grind on for the past few months.

Geezus, yesterday I just had my first 'Caffeine Rush' after having Cocoa Cuppuccino in Starbucks. Well, what I initially thought was that I would be able to have a better sleep for the school on the next day. Contrary to what I thought, I wasn't able to fall asleep and woke up 3.30p.m filled of energy and ended up rolling around on the bed hugging my pigs. Lifeless.

So I came to realization that there's not much time to waste as exam's coming. So, at 4a.m in the morning the lights were on and in my hand, held the Sejarah Reference Book. Managed to finish studying 1 Chapter before the clock struck 5.
And at 5, I went to copy an essay.

Hell yeah, that's not the end yet.

I went to school with complete concentration.. and that lasted until recess.

Must'd been the Avenged Sevenfold concert.
Fuck yeah, it was my first concert and it ended up pretty cool, glass shattering, total madness.
Well, the atmosphere was superb, filled with smokers and rockers.

Haha, the part when someone shouted 'HERE COMES THE BITCHES..' when a bunch of girls came into the field made me LMAO.
Getting stuck in the mosh pit was not a good idea though.

Okay, that's about it.. Back to books.


Must have stabbed her 50 fucking times.

Parallels..

12.06 a.m. Friday. My dad went out all of a sudden.. and I grasped this opportunity to update my soon-to-be cobwebbed blog. Gah. Not a great time to write, but it will do. Well, I'm blessed with the ability to speedtype. Speedtyping is defined as the ability to type without looking at the keyboard.. therefore, my eyes are now fixed at the screen the whole time. Guess this explains why I am short-sighted. Sigh, being short sighted isn't fun.. due to the fact that I have to get stuck with my specs all of the time and none of them will hold long enough. My parents don't allow me to change to contacts though, well, I don't really wanna change to contacts too. Looks Mafan to me. LOL. :P Let's see, I have changed a couple of specs now, mostly due to basketball. Specs don't really go with that sport. Sometimes, I end up cutting myself from the sharp edges of it. Ouch. ... I had a nap this evening.. and I had this weird dream about all the memories that I had gone through.. And somehow, I was conscious in my dreams, and somehow I can recall.. I think I was lucid dreaming I guess. Cool.. Well, sadly that was just a dream.. A dream I would hope to never wake up from.. ... It will be a busy week for me.. From studying, playing to attending concerts, so from another point of view, I have literally no time to get enough rest. Too much entertainment and studies and stuffs. Not to mention, exams' right around the corner. My mind's blank most of the time. Especially in school. Gah. Seriously, what lah. ... Haru-haru.. Day by day.. I get dull. Okay time for a change, I shall be a gentleman from now on.. I shall cut down the usage of curse and vulgar verbally. I shall scold it in my heart and not through orally if I can withstand it. :P Hmm.. Challenge accepted. :)

What if..

Tick-tock..

April 11th, 4.38pm, Wednesday.


A holiday.. well, didn't go as great as planned. Arguments and quarrels filled the whole morning.. Gah.

It's a weekday, and I'm not suppose to be online. I know, I am suppose to be studying now. Or.. revisioning. Or whatever.

I know I know I know..

Gah.. my Ohm's coming but somehow, I just have no constant motivation to hold those dreadful texts in my hands and fill my mind with all those, mind-boggling information.

Rawr.

...

Bought 2 new picks today. And it's sweet. :D Even better than my Hetfield's Black Fang. Spent me rm 6 for those. Tried those immediately after I reached home and my playing became more smoother. (: Awesome.

To say the truth, I have nothing much to update about now. Seems like I've returned to square one, the boring old self again. :P.

Oh yeah,

I finished reading Heroes Of Olympus : Son of Neptunes..

Well as expected, the plot of the story is amazing, but.. apart of all the combat and heroic scenes, I spotted some of the romantic scenes and couples in the whole story.

Well,

Percy Jackson-Annabeth Jason-Reyna Frank Zhang-Hazel Levesque

Oh yeah, Frank and Hazel pair is damn sweet all the time. Aha. XD

...

Hmm..

So Mun Chun's birthday's yesterday.. Qi's birthday is next week.

Oh gosh, mine's gonna come too.. LOL XD in 3 months..

...

I am the best. 2ne1 (:

Morose.

Another update yo. (:

This time, hmm, ah let's see what's been happening lately.

Ahhh I know, let's talk about making stars. XD



Recently, I hooked up with Sue Ann and Mei Xin who are both sitting right behind John and I in class and kinda learn how to make Paper Stars with them. Paper stars? Yeah, the one with lots of diagonal folding which can confuse one easily. It's pretty frustrating the whole day, trying to perfect one star. To barely form a single star already took me about.. ehto.. 30 strips of paper, not to mention, some pretty folding papers too.

Well, got some master teachings also by Yim, who actually practiced day by day folding the paper just to impress and entertain Mei Xian. Aww.. XD

Okay, so the folding part were kinda causing me to fly off the handle. With Sue Ann constantly tricking and messing with my innocent mind, I always got myself into her traps.

Well some of it were,

1)You can only try and fold either the 2nd time or the 15th time with the same paper.
2)Find the holes in your star and blow it, the hole will become smaller. Yea right.


XD

I didn't mind being trick though. Had quite a great time folding the stars and learning this form of skill? Wrote letters on some of the paper, folded it into star form, and passed it around.

So, nevertheless, it actually makes a great form of communication eh, don't you think? (:



...

I see.
I wasn't the only one facing problems after all.
And now there's a bet on me.
Am I doing myself good, or is it throwing myself into the furnace and burn.
Yes burn, let me disintegrate from this world.
Let me close my eyes, Let my mind wander off into somewhere..
Somewhere that my virtual angellic wings would take me.

...

Playing basketball with Khai Seong is the only place where I can really let go.
Feeling the texture of the ball in my hands,
the only thing that my mind thinks is either,
Score or Pass. Nothing else unrelated to these 2 words.

Being me, most of the time, I would prefer to take it to the hole.
Though that, sometimes it's better to trust the people around you as,
the power to make wonders doesn't lie only in your hands but the hands of others.
Sometimes, it's more easier to let someone else guide you, and there's always somebody who slips up a mistake and there's someone who's there to take advantage.

So, to not slip up. I've always put my concentration into the game.

It actually takes all the burden of my mind. What burden?
There's a lot. A lot to think about.
A lot to say, but my mouth wouldn't give it out.

...

There was once in the squash court,
I screamed my lungs out,
let emotions run through me and I knew I wouldn't breakdown.
There're still friends at that time,
Wyn Yun and Kai Ren, they know how I felt,
they are both very cheerful and sometimes emotional people.
More importantly, they have been through this phase.

It's my first afterall and the first hurts.

RAWRRR.

But what if, there's no one there to support you, and you know you're stranded to your own insanity. What if, your last resort is only yourself. What do you do?

Yes, I publicly voice out my thoughts, it's not about I don't care about what others think, but there's not much that can be actually mouth and is actually easier to type it through.

To spend times in shower, letting the water flow.. punching the wet walls, screaming, shouting like a godzilla. Yeah, this is how my spend my time alone, and my way of expressing my sorrow. It still hurts inside.

I have no idea what to do now.

...

Tek, if you are ever reading this post,

I might forfeit the game before the dateline.

If I finally gain realization,

That it's useless fighting for someone who doesn't even care about you the same way as you do about her.

Someone who drag you into your misery and decides to pull out first.

Fuck Everything.

Tch..

Yes, finally know how to sing. What an accomplishment.. haha.. Nothing feels better to be able to sing and express your feelings through songs and pieces.

Yes, apparently, somehow, feelings can overflow. That, brings out tears of agony, pain, frustration.

Well, that's actually part of the game. Since part of your feelings are dedicated to the song.

So yeah, the 2nd round of idol ended up with four Emo guys, singing a fucking emo song.. by no other than the Prince of Love Song. Well, we kinda screwed it up but not as badly as we thought. Wyn Yun, somehow raised his volume to the max, covering mine. == Eff. So emo for what Wyn Yun, me volume 5 you straight shoot to volume 10. Yan Wong..


Lethargic and Sleepy..

But, don't wanna sleep now. I'm a bad bad boy.. >:D.
Somehow, dad didn't pull plug today, not yet I guess.
So why not spend a bit more time on the internet, before I have another 5 days break?
Well, somehow the responsibility of studying starts to set into me.

Enough of wasted light.
Gonna start studying soon.

It's really frustrating to see myself in this position.
Struggling to get good results while my siblings actually made everything look simple.

Jayden: 21st Edane: 5th Enson: 2nd

Yes, comparison between 3 of us are like that,
normally I'm the one whom always get overshadowed due to my lack of ability to implant good grades in my report card.

Year by year, it's like that.

Sigh..

Fight.

When you thought that, nothing could be any worse than the demon inside you.

Boom.

Your exam results came out. It's good for you to get a eye-pleasing two-digit score, but in my case, it's appalling. Really appalling. In my opinion by the way. Dang, how can.. Really screw this term. I did badly in Mathematics, my languages were a downfall, my chem was literally shit. Thank god, my Bio and Physics were a booster dose. But was it enough to cover the hole I actually dug for myself? I doubt.

Gosh, when I always turn and look to my right, I always feel morose. Hey, my bro John is actually overtaking me already, working hard, studying, and when I look at myself, I see a guy, always get stuck up with emotional problems.

No more though, somehow, I feel that my ohm is coming. Maybe it's just me. After being present in the Edufair in Klcc. I somehow found an aim for myself and go on to my psychopath. (yes the Gazette).. physchological* studies.


To pursue my studies, it will take a lot of hard work.

It's more than just saying..

You have to actually work hard for it.

It's life. (:

Sorry for the abrupt ending but, gotta go sleep now dam tired.

Bye laptop, Hi sleep goddess. Let's sleep XD

Take a fall.

I just realized how guys just couldn't forget the ones that they had cared about, loved, and created memories with before.

I had known some of them. And I could see, they still couldn't remove the stained spots that the previous one had walked pass.

No, I refuse. I refuse to end up like that.

Fuck.

Seriously fuck it.

Tried hard for something, failed.
Tried hard to win something, failed.
Tried my best to change, failed.
Tried my best to communicate, failed.

Geez. How screwed my girl-handling skills can be.

Ahh. Just like what John said, Girls can never be understand. TYPICAL GUYS AGREE ON THAT except those who think like girls. I don't fucking care wether offense is taken but that's the truth.

Gah,

there's one statement that I had received for quite sometime now,

and I'm gonna cling on to that until the right time comes.

"Bro, You deserve better.."



It's wonderful how lyrics can affect one's thought..

seriously God,

I pray,

Let me break through this stumble

and let me come back ten times as hard, strong and powerful.




But firstly, Remove from me this deception I called love.

If I'd never let you go..

Whew.. Just came back from the annual Prefect Trip. 光阴似箭..this would be my last Prefect Trip with my fellow colleagues and juniors. How time passes so fast, it's my last year in this school, last year taking the crazy examinations, last year creating memories in this school. AGHHHHHHHH.. there's so much things to do, like bringing the class team to a medal in basketball. (:

Gah, the Prefect Trip was awesome shit. The place was Broga Hills, small, but filled with activities. Stunningly. The dorm's not bad too yo, and the toilet's okay. Okay, so I actually got to sleep with my usual gang of prefects, Wei Jian, Lenian, Hushil, Zhong Yih. Haha. Definitely LMAO moments there. A lot of perverted talks and sick thoughts in the room. Not a room for pure people.

So, I didn't involve myself much for EVERYTHING. Just, Wei Teen the hell scard me off during the first night. I'm freaked out due to the horror music she's been showing me at 10a.m. Meh!.. Ohmaigawd. That made me cover my ears for most of the time at the basketball court. Thank God, Zhong Yih was by myside all the time.

God shit, being alone at the basketball with only a few lights on in the middle of the night was scary.

Apparently, we had to stay on the whole night for some discussion, which I failed to stay up.. Not me only though, a few of us didn't manage it. We loitered all around the room, jumping up and down just to keep ourselves awake for the briefings. Little did I know that the committee need to do such stuffs! Torturous!

At 3 a.m I finally collapsed.. and had to head back to bed and sleep. I couldn't take it. I slept 4 hours the previous night and woke up to watch Arsenal. Now another sleepless night? No way. At last, I managed to fight for at least 3 hours of sleep and I bet that the next day isn't going to be any easier.


True enough, Food finding and amazing race sapped the energy all out of me. I was a body without a soul. Dang.. Firstly, I was on duty with Yin Jun at a station filled with flour, beans and garlic. And yeah, we were hiding those beans ( 4 different types ) and seperated garlic all under a whole basin of flour. They were supposed to use their mouth ONLY to reach down and actually, scoop up the floor and the beans..

Food finding worked this way,

For each 20 beans of the same kind found, they will get 500 working moneh..
And for teams who collected the most monneh, they get the most points. (:

Later on,

I was on station with Zhong Yih, playing breadworms. Ohmygosh.. all the live breadworms were freaky at first.. Seriously. Wiggle. There were 5 boxes, with each box ranging from 20-30 worms. I was shocked at the sight of such big fat worms, totally a direct contrast from the previous camps, which the worms were much smaller and minute.

Shit. Huge worms, now what.

Okay, before game started, we poured two boxes of live worms into the basin, taking up about 1/10 of the basin. Apparently, 3 other boxes had died soon before we even used it. Screw. So Zhong Yih killed the other 2 boxes by filling up the whole basin filled with water, drowning them instantaneously. The mixture of worms and water was not a pleasing sight, for me and for juniors. Zhong Yih seemed okay with it though. Brave much.

A lot of screams came along as our juniors settled themselves for the game. The task here, was too balance the basin with their legs, with the legs off the ground, and the ass on the ground. The game ends when they successfully sang the whole school anthem with worms and water as distraction.

I'm scard of worms too eh. So, my job's to spray water on every one of them. Meanwhile, Zhong Yih spilled worms on them. Holishyt..

BBQ Party.

Okay, drama night again.. I was staring at first, until I slowly slowly dozed off. Eventually, my whole dorm mates suggested to return to the dorm. So, off we went to the dorm to sleep, leaving the other committees behind.

I'm so sorry.. ><

Mountain climbing on the third day was sick. Waking up at 5.30 a.m, I shared a can of Livita with Wei Jian.. (Thanks yo) and stumbled and fell all the way up the mountain. It was steep alright, got to get behind the juniors to help them. Those without sports shoes were a mess, as I could see some of them wearing converse or maybe Nike, trying to hike up the mountain were to no avail. Sigh.

So, that's about it from the committee point of view.




I take back my words, letting go isn't that easy.
Every time I looked at the picture she drew for me which I sticked on my wall,
I'm at the verge of tears.

Why? What's wrong? Things were still not very clear to me.
I had no idea what happened. She did not tell me anything. She did not want to tell me anything. How do I know what's she thinking..?

If there's one more chance to tan bai anything. I would tell her.

Hey. You changed.

And if there's a chance that you would return..

I promise you I'd never let you go.

Leave Out All The Rest..

Expected.

It all ended.
My suffering, first time caring, treating a girl with all my best.
Trying to build a great relationship, maintain it and make sure everything go smooth.
Things were right at first, but relationships are a bumpy roads filled with ups and downs.

Though, I had never regretted anything. Doing all my best for a girl. I just hope the memories stayed with her. Thanks for the memories.

Cookies.
Walking out of school.
Sweet texts.
Morning Calls.
Chocolates.
All the Baka-calling names.

Thanks for the memories.. (X

But there's something wrong somehow, the ending was just too brief.



Argh.. My hands are still aching from the aftermath of the paint job. Due to my undesirably short height, the corners of the ceiling-sidewall boundary had caused me to go on full stretch. Meanwhile, also had to keep the balance as I stood on a chair on a table lolx.

It's great to see people coming to class and help. And some of them (including me) :P Bluek, stayed on to abt 4+ to paint the walls. Seriously, Dedication man. All of us scraped and painted and scraped again. Screw. Other class had finished way ahead of us and we were still busying trying to get the old paint off.

Well at least all the hard work paid off eh. XD

Then, after all the work, we had a little usual SamSiTalk, which ended up quite furious.. and curses.. and

What I felt the most, Guilt.

I couldn't believe my ears when I heard those words. I didn't know that I once caused this trouble, so along with the Epc's. I really need to apologize, seriously, if it hadn't been that day I wouldn't know what had actually happened.




As time passes, we see true colours.
As time passes, we know that
Who's right, who's wrong;
Who's changed and who's not;
Who's evil and who's pure;

You may mask over the face; but you can't throw away what you have done; and what people see in you.

我不知道。。

哎。。 真的不知道我做错了什么？

为何换来的是你的敷衍。。 我到底是说错了。。做错了什么东东。。

哎。。

每当看见之前的回忆。。 不禁感叹。。

感觉已不在了吗？

不，我还想挽回。。 希望不会太迟。。

我正的很怀念。。

Shut down..

I just wanna say..

Mr Cedric.. Fuck you.

I'm jealous and I know it.

Kthxbai. Sigh.. ==

Mind Blown.

I'm officially Mind Blown. (:

Given up hope on this exam man. Good shit. The teacher really did a superb job for arranging such.. discouraging schedule. Dafuq? First Add Maths, then Bio, then Sejarah. Sigh.. Pretty screwed up for me. Caused me to lose all my motivation d.. what to do.. screw lah.

Currently lying on my bed.. Hugging the Piggy I brought to Pangkor.. Yeah since my girl hugged it during the trip, It is safe in my arms every night.. Hahaha.

Actually I had no idea why I'd like to collect piggies all the time. Since like I had this habit since I was in.. Form 1 or 2 maybe? The main reason collecting all these piggy products is that.. I am born in the year of Pig.. yeah zodiac. Well, I know it's a stupid and immature reason but yeah.. I'm also naturally attracted to cute stuff.. so I see something nice and worthy, I just grab it off the rack.

Some of the friends think that, walaoeh, Jayden you dam gay weih. Especially Hsien Loong, obviously in a joking manner lah. But then the kawaii-ness of the products seriously dam :D lo, well and definitely cash-sapping.

Sigh.. back to reality..

In the midst of exams..

Gonna revise chinese again later on.. for now. Sejarah yo.

Sob sob..

Lyrics:

Youre gone.
Youre gone.

Your bodys cold,
Hope is lost,
I cant let go.
Can I die with you so we can never grow old?
Cut the ties,
With this note you left behind,
As I read the word I hear you telling me why.

Too late, too late,
I never said goodbye
Too late, too late,
Cant even ask you why.
Now Im wasting,
Away in my own misery.
I hope youre finally gone,
To a place where you belong.

My sadness shows,
As your name is carved in stone,
Cant erase the words so the reality grows.
I wish I died,
On that right by your side,
So just kill me now and let the good times roll.

Too late, too late,
I never said goodbye
Too late, too late,
Cant even ask you why.
Now Im wasting,
Away in my own misery.
I hope youre finally gone,
To a place where you belong.

Will you wait for me?
Will I see you on the other side?
You wont have to wait too long.
(Yeah, yeah)
Will you come for me?
Will you take me to the other side?
Cause here I dont belong.

-- epic solo --

Too late, too late,
I never said goodbye
Too late, too late,
Cant even ask you why.
Now Im wasting,
Away in my own misery.
I hope youre finally gone,
To a place where you belong.

I never said goodbye
Cant even ask you why.
Now Im wasting,
Away in my own misery.
I hope youre finally gone,
To a place where you belong.

..
...
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..
Nononono..
Fuckin lyrics..
T.T

AHHHHHHHHHHH.. XD

OH, I FINALLY REALIZE SOMETHING. HOPEFULLY IT ISN'T TOO LATE. :D

Exams.

Bored..

Was staring at Mitosis and Meiosis basically the whole day..

Kinda bored out of studying, Sigh. Such determination for the first time exams.

Well, I came out with a decent plan to solve it all.

Aim: Fail First Term, and get Superb results for Second Term.

So, when my parents come visiting, at least I can say there's improvement. LOL

Well, I guess this year I wouldn't get complaints from my form teacher. I'm seriously pissed with Siti Mariam, for comparing me with the other Prefects. Damn, how can she even put Me and Zhong Yih in phase. I'm at the foot of the hill that time and Zhong Yih is in the Space already. Screw, better chase after him. Before people start comparing prefects again. :X

Actually, Kinda lost all my Ohm and Motivation for this term. RAWR, where the hell d' all the motivation from last year gone to? ToT..

I haven't been setting targets this year, since I have been drowning in happiness that I reached my aim, and eventually got accepted later on.. (Weee.. XD yep couldn't sleep that night).. was in seventh heaven. XD

Now, seeing friends all working like bees.. I'm really tensed now..

Scared.

Frightened.

Because of some examination. And heck, SPM's haven't reach yet..


Back to staring at dreaded history text book..
Hopefully I won't get too frustrated and tear the book into half.. after seeing my Success Biology divided itself into half this morning. LOL

Emo phase..?

Dear Diary:

Friday:
Isabel was by my side. Zhong Yih, John, Wyn Yun, Mun Chun, Yi Lin, Xiao Qi.. all by my side when I'm going through the same phase that I thought, I'd never walked again. Yet I did. Yet I did. I had no idea what was the group I used to be in thinking. I really wanna join them, but I was tired, tired of the flow of gossips and secrets.
It's unfair to say that, I had no really no idea, what were they talking all the time. But from the cold treatment from the people I was receiving lately, from that particular group lately.. it seriously hurt me from the inside.

I really don't know what I've been doing wrong lately, somehow I don't feel really welcomed in that area anymore. Yeah, nobody is wrong this time. What if.. What if.. a lot of what if's are flooding in.

Been talking a lot with Zhong Yih lately, and also John. (: Since I'm always remaining constant in my seat, time to time I have been scanning around the area. Mun Chun's completely change into a study geek, to replace the wasted time. Somehow, everybody change. The whole world change. Some people realize.. some people got fucked up. To admit, I always had the feeling that I'm gonna be fucked up this year...

______________________________________________________________________

I had a crush on Isabel before..
The crush stayed on for 4 years..
And in that 4 years, I was constantly shy and afraid to talk to her.
Because of Isabel alone, I left out talking to other girls.
Every time I wanna talk, I got shy.

Just now, Isabel read my dairy, without me knowing. I tried to warn her about my dark thoughts, dark side of me which no one, had ever seen before. Somehow I realized that I'm getting evil and more evil. Shit. I'm suppose to be the mindless and carefree brat that's been living for abt 17 years. Screw.. She read through my dairy, without uttering a single word. And for the very first time, someone praised me for being able to write like that.

After finishing reading, she wrote a few advices on the back pages.



And there I sat alone, reading the advices, with tears flowing..

Kaboom. :D

Hi earth.

10.26p.m.. tick tock.

In a blink of an eye, one day is gonna pass. Man, sometimes sitting in class alone, it's when all the thoughts gushing into the mind. Form 5 now, exams, assignments, exams, clubs, I could still remember the first day coming into this school as a cute innocent young fella with a bright future ahead of him. Seriously, after all these years, I have seen all types of people now, who branches out to different fields, or with their specialty and talent.

For Example, my idol in this school. Until now, although he had been expelled out of the PB, which I really blame the fucking Joyce for that, I'm still trying to keep contact with him. A very good friend that one can have. :) This guy, is no other than Yuen Foong, the guy who inspired me to pick up a guitar and taught me several classical pieces.

I'm a Trinity Grade 5 student, approaching my grade 8 next year, after 4 years of playing. Due to my cant-be-bothered attitude, my guitar skills is coming to a downfall unfortunately. Plus, my theory sucks, my hearing sucks as well. I can play, but cant play at a high level, as my interest still remains in the pick, and the sound of an electric guitar. XD


My Ibanez is 2 1/4 years old now.. and my Cuenca is 1 1/2 years old btw.

So, today's pjk.

My class started off with something special today - Jumping hurdles, for boys only.

Well, I managed to skip past all the obstacles. (pretty scared though) Dared not put the burden too much on my left knee. One harsh landing and sooner or late, I would be lying down on the field, face flat. Screw. :X

Still, I'm still patiently waiting for the day when basketball sets into play. :D

Need to get couple of shots in the hole man. (Y)

Oh yeah and the birth-giving vid today.. HOLISHYT.

And so, Mr Tee did it for the first time during Valentines' MINDFUCK. O.O

Game On..

Stronger mental strength. :D

Exam mood's somehow not on yet eh? Me? Definitely feeling the pressure piling along my back. Homeworks' burning me up. Complicated Mathematics and Additional Mathematics working my brains off, killing up my brain cells. There's much more things to think of now. My once, placid and free mind is filled with shit stuffs nowadays.. and maybe a touch of Happy Memories. XD


Oh-em-gee..
Hate to see my friend being Emo shit nowadays. First time seeing him being so serious so passionate, but getting turned down, denied and rejected man. O: Confined in his room, trying to forget everything from the past few days. Cannot blame him juga. Similarly to me, his physically strong but mentally a pussy. Of All,

My Biggest Fear : Horror movies.
His Biggest Fear : Girls.

Gawd. :3

Indirectly communicating with the dark side of me in my tiny little monologue.. Ahh screw.. when did I last have my dark side, after living life for 17 years.. Great. #scribblescribblescribble


Oh yeah, thinking too much also worn me out lately. Natural for me to think of all sorts of stuffs, no matter love or hate, and let my imagination run wild. Not necessary a good thing though. Thinking too much can cause a lot of trouble, jealousy and misunderstanding. Tested and certified. Not to mention, it has caused me to be lethargic almost at all times. Dang, can't even keep my eyes wide open recently. (Anyways, when did I really open my eyes fully.. O:) So yeah.



Elloh Baka..
Dont dare to stare me d ka?.. o.o
Then Imma stare into your eyes from now on and see what're you thinking..
Muahaha. XD



"No one knows what the future holds. It's possibilities are limitless. This, is the choice of Steins;Gate."

Hacking to the Gate; Steins;Gate.

First Valentine?

So this was my entry for my dairy yesterday:

‘今天将会做到自己想象不到的事’..

Until today, I still couldn't really believe it though..

So this was what happened yesterday..

Parted ways with my girlfriend,
Got a bar of chocolate from her.. which came unexpectedly. (Aww.. <3)
Camped in physics lab, desperately trying to finish up the Valentine's Card.
Took out the necklace with with both bronze and silver hearts on it.
Held the necklace in my hand, gripping it tight.
Dashed towards library with John by my side, Jean and Xing Yi leading the way.
Waited patiently with the killing suspense (John say de) outside the library.
Walked in, saw my girl with the eyes close.
Got behind her, help her wore the necklace from the back.

Okay the last one failed. XD My clumsiness got the better of me at last. Epic fail. Though I finally got it right, and made sure that the necklace stayed around her. (:

Epic things happened afterwards but, I will skip that for now.

Well, special thanks to everyone who helped me along the way though, especially Mun Chun and Yi Zen. (X Helped me with the idea, and also retrieved the necklace for me. o.o

It was not a normal thing to do, to go with Valentines Day in particular. For the past four year, I hadn't realized this day at all as to do me, it was a normal day, normal life.

Not this year..
I got to celebrate with my girlfriend and spent time together..
Not as long as expected but still.. happy enough. (:
Though I still had no idea why John described us as the weirdest couple? Lolx.

Gonna tuition soon though. Gonna end here first.


Thanks for letting me be your Valentine..
Arigato baka. XD