Family?

This might no be a pleasant blog for viewers. There's a possibility that this can cause conflict and spoils to friendships but I just have to write it.

Being my blog readers, I hope you guys will understand. I am a Cancer after all.

So, just so recently, there's a farewell party for my beloved classmate and Da Jie, Li Wen.. who's heading to Singapore to pursue her study. If I could wish, I would wish for her not to go too. Oh well. So apparently, my class.. oh should I say, a Group from my class actually made a farewell party for her.

What's the big deal?

I'm not invited. In a matter of fact, not even half the class was invited. It was just a farewell party. A party without your classmates. Well, I bet you'd never think of your classmates right when organizing a farewell party for another classmate? I mean come on, it's commence sense right?

There were actually photos up on FB which said farewell party to my Big Sis. From there I can see few of my classmates were there. But how? When I first saw the photos, in my heart I thought, 'when was this all about? Why weren't I invited?' I was expecting a farewell party, and now I wasn't invited.

Fine I guess. Until I found out that, I wasn't the only one.

Til then shit gets real.

Just to share, thanks to these way of doing things, you indirectly earned our talks behind the scenes.

Yeah, you might say the classic,

'Everytime Jio You You Also Never Come'.. or
'Everytime Jio You You Say Busy' or
'I thought you have class what'.

Stfu.

Even if any reasons above were valid, at least people should know that, the effort to invite was there.
And, significant or insignificantly, my Big Sis played a role in my life and there is a chance that I want to be with her and send her off for the last time.

You might say that, this is not even a 'S3' outing, its just a random one.

Sua. I'm speechless.

It's just a piece of my mind. My tongue is sharp, so I hope this passage will pierce through.
And somehow, I believe that, I indirectly voice out some of our hearts here in no other than, our family. S3.

Anyways, Ying Quan, Loong, Lian Jiet actually came all the way from Sunway to an area around Help. Quan actually called me, too bad I was in class, or not I would be with them already.

Gamdong.

Please Don't..

We sit next to each other in the car but there is no music
I always held your left hand but now you’re picking at your lips

I know what you’re going to say, please don’t say it
Don’t know why Don’t know why
I want to draw out each minute, each second
But the empty road rushes me on

After going round and round
I arrive at your house that’s so familiar and tears fall
After spending a long day finding this place
I feel like I am lost

Please don’t, please don’t leave
Don’t know why Don’t know why
It’s not even raining but outside the window
You grow white and farther apart

Letting you go is not as easy as it sounds
I turn away, not being able to see you leave me
Tears eventually drop and I need to wipe them away now
I don’t know whether I should use the handkerchief you gave me or throw it away
Why won’t this trembling go away?

I pretend to be crazy and hold onto you but
My body won’t listen to me
Intoxicated with the scent of you in the car
I don’t want to wake up forever

Please don’t (please) don’t leave please (please)
Come back (come back) come back (come back)
On top of the empty seat you left
only your cold scent remains

Please don’t, please don’t leave
Come back (come back) come back (come back)
I will hold onto the remaining scent
So come back to your place

Mockingbird..

I was listening to some saddest Eminem's creation.. like When I'm Gone, Mockingbird, Spacebound.. and was browsing through their lyrics.

Well, Mockingbird is a really sad song which describes Eminem's feelings towards his children.

But then, the lyrics from the ending chorus is just plain lmao.
And if you ask me too


Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile

And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdie's neck                                      
I'll go back to the jeweler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don't fuck with dad (ha ha)

LOL.

Alone

Get the most yanwong result of all time.

Anyways, my mom was talking about career pathway a few days back again.

And I told her, I added a few jobs into my list of careers that I might want to pursue.

Well these are a few:

Psychologist

Psychiatrist 

Marine Biologist

Veterinarian 

Hahaha.. When I told my mom that I wanna work with animals.. she was like.. Wtf?

But then eventually she somehow agreed with me going with being a Vet. 

I mean come on, it's cool right working with cute fluffy animals, like the dog and cats.

It'd be a huge advantage for me, cause I ain't scared of them.. :D

Sigh.. Sometimes I just wish that I would wake up and find my whole life a dream.

Angel of Darkness..

Yay, I finally caught up with my Maths homework.. though the fact that I skipped some of the questions because I didn't know how to do it. LOL.

I barely slept 8 hours last night.. Recently, I could hardly fall into deep sleep, and always woke up earlier than what I wanted to. There seems to be something disrupting me mentally but until now, I have no idea what it is. Stress? Maybe.

I just went to the Ultimate Guitar Store to check on my Schecter Hellraiser. Unfortunately, it is not going to arrive any sooner, and I kind of looked up to another guitar then. There was a lot of Synyster Custom displays there, which definitely caught my interest.. and I could afford it actually, but I didn't. It is always stressful to play someone's signature guitar.. I'm serious :P.

Anyways, another Bio test is coming up next week. Didn't do as well as I expected for the first time. Gonna redeem myself for the next. So yeah, drop some motivation for me in the chatbox. Hahaha.

(:

Breaking Someone's Confidence.

My physics teacher always say "Ask the same question to the same person twice, and this is how you break someone's confidence." True enough, until now, that teacher never fails to mentally break a person, causing them to change their initial answers although it's the correct one.

It's the month of March, a March deemed to be great fun at the same time, filled with some brick walls in between the days. Brick walls as in Challenges.

Well, glad to say that, I just passed my recent one, which was the mid-term of test of Malaysian and Moral Studies. :D So happy to get over with it man, its even more stressful than the normal typical CHS exams, mainly because:
1) If you fail, you have to redo in the next sem.
2) Referring to 1, I don't mind redoing, but to see all your friends passed with you the only one failing, the feeling is like. Y U NO FAIL WITH ME. Hahahaha.
3) You have to pay another RM2400 for taking the subjects, which is a good thing for the government.

So, now its up to our Project, which is gonna earn us the majority of the marks, so yeah, progressing now. :)

Tracking back to last few days, Hsien Loong, Khai Seong and I were at the park playing basketball with some mid 20 to 30 adults. I was guarding some guy who wore #17 Lin jersey and guessed what, he literally threw an elbow and banged me. Actually, Loong and Seong both got it too.

However, we were still leading that game, thanks to the Navin, our teammate at that time for firing in a streak of sensational shots. Then, things turned pretty ugly, when the #17 shoved Loong and pointed in his face, demanding him to play fair. Wtf? Coming for the guy throwing elbows, asking someone to play fair? Loong didn't even do anything. I had to hurry over to pull Loong away and one of Loong's friends, a mid-20 adult too, help calmed that fucking fella.

Well, its the first time seeing someone, almost wanting to throw a punch towards my friend.

Okay.. Next.

I drove for the second time of my life in my second driving lesson last Friday. It was scary man, cutting through narrow roads parked with car at the side. As soon as I got into the car, another car was coming from the opposite direction. I just got into my car and hadn't even started my car yet. Panicking panicking.

After a while, I found myself driving on the highway to my driving school at Selayang. Driving from Bandar Utama to Selayang.. On my second lesson? Hell yeah.. thank god my car didn't die off as the traffic light turned green. Haha. It would be embarrassing. ><

Well, I'm not running for anything and have nothing, no club or societies to look forward to I guess. Just the Sports Carnival to look forward to, yeah, Basketball again. :) Oh oh, my new guitar is supposed to arrive this month too. Oh oh oh, and the SPM results.

Come to think of it, there's a lot of things to look forward to. XD

Stitch My Wings..

先在这里向大家祝贺，新年快乐，身体健康，万事如意。

Again here, I see Jeanno asking me for an update. Lol, so much for Jayden loyal fan club. Hahahaha.


Anyways, how time flies, one month has passed by, and we are on the fourth day of Chinese New Year, the festival of devouring cookies and fishing Angpows. Not to mention, gathering with my beloved family and friends. I was back in Penang the last four days, in my father's hometown. (Those who say Seberang Perai is not part of Penang, it is so stfu.) Well, too bad this time no Char Kuey Teow or my favourite O Jian (How the heck you spell this lol) aka Fried Oyster with Egg.

Every time going back to Penang, I can feel a warm welcome. Back in Bukit Kechil, the lifestyle is so relaxing, it's almost like people there are having the same routine everyday. Going back there normally means nothing but boredom for my brother and I except for going out with our cousins as we have a language and topic barrier with my grandparents.. (I'm sorry I can't speak Teochew that fluent). It's pretty hard to understand what they are saying as I'm not used to it. :3

So for the past 3 days, mostly in the evening or at night in my cousins house, gambling, which I eventually lost RM 13. T_T.. Lady Luck why you no help me de!! Sad lahhh.. I thought I can win myself some money for food in college. Well, now I have to resort to my parents again.

Anyways, what made this a so heartwarming CNY for me was that, in my hometown, I had fun with all the toddlers and babies walking around the place. Aww, words couldn't describe how cute are they. Hahaha, hope all of them grow up cute too. Played with them, hugged them, let them sit on my lap. It seems things like this only happens once a year.

Well there's still many events coming up for me. Followed by the restart of the challenging yet exciting college life.



So, see you guys in the next post. :)