Shh.. XD

1am..

Today's Mother's Day, I'm suppose to wake up at 8 later to help out my siblings in preparing a so-called-surprise-breakfast for my mom. Yeah, we are gonna cook. Well not me maybe, I think I might just stand there and kelefeh or watch out.. and wait to eat later.

Okay, so basically, everybody is tense and pressure with the on-going exams, which is going to last for another two weeks. 3 days had already passed, I did okay I guess. Didn't have time to think so much. Well, for the past couple of months, I started to see how an exam can reflect on one's personality. The used-to-be rampaging class had turned into a grave with dead silence.

Creepy. Yeah.

How unexpected to see people change that much because of the exams. Now, talking to people is becoming more stress. Upon stumbling them.. those not-so-close ones, the opening topic of our conversation wouldn't be 'Hey how's life? (:' anymore. Shocking to see when I met some friends, especially those who are really exam-conscious ones, they would always be the first to say 'Hey you study finish already ah?' or 'Hey, your class got any tips for exams?'.. These two type of conversation starters may as well act as finishers. I'm starting to get annoyed with people like this. Sigh.

Human nature now tells me that once people get stressed of a certain thing they want to accomplish. They can't take things off their mind. Studying is our responsibility, yes. But, what for studying to compete, when the main reason we actually study is to gain knowledge from it.

Xin Ying actually enlightened me with this sentence,
"We study isn't because of gaining good results, but to gain knowledge from it"

And now, I totally agree with it.

Although saying all these shit, I still have to put in effort to get an at least reasonable and satisfying result by this mid-term exams. Don't wanna disappoint my parents.



So anyways, after seeing Paul Gilbert's video lesson, which I learn a lot, my motivation to play in a band has raised by leaps and bounds. Ah, hopefully if there's a chance, I still wanna perform live on stage. But before that day can come, I might have to go pierce a few earholes and tattoo myself with the hope of changing my personal appearance.

But, some things just can't be taken away.

My tui looks.

SAD.